mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Wednesday, 14 January 2009
i wish....
i could turn back the time
it's not like me to be like this until now.
it's supposed to have ended last month.
it's supposed to have stopped by now.
it's not supposed to be like this.
i'm losing my faith.
i try hard not too.
i try to keep believing.
but it's just so hard.
i cant seem to smile like i used to.
im always plastered with a fake grin.
i dont want to be like this.
i want to laugh again.
i feel like i cant do anything.
like whatever i do just doesnt seem right
whenever i try to help
things just get worse.
it's not supposed to be like this.
what's going on?
the pounding wont stop
the nightmares keep coming back.
i dont want to run away anymore.
i want to face my fears
and be who i can be
not who they want me to be
but i cant.
quote:
i feel like there's giants of fears and failures
staring at me,
waiting to crush me.
but it's like no matter what
i just cant help backing down
no matter how much i try and tell myself it wasnt my fault
i'm still unable to forgive myself
for something i didnt do.
is there anyone out there?
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:16