Tuesday, 31 March 2009

ohman.
thanks you guys [shuxin , dionne, jade] for cheering me up
and making me laugh and all that today
i love you loadsssssssssssssssssss :D
and thanks yuwenn [boink partner !] im feeling better now(:



Runaway love

Now little Lisa is only 9 years old
She's trying to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she's all alone and ain't never met her family
Mama's always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listen
Mama is on drugs getting high up in the kitchen
Bringing home men at different hours of the night
Starting with some laughs -- usually ending in a fight
Sneaking in her room while her mama's knocked out
Trying to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

Runaway love

Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step-dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleeding on the inside, crying on the out
It's only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is little Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight 'til the end
Until one day little Stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

Runaway love

Little Erica is eleven years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops pills to get rid of all the pain
Plus she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinking 'bout the consequences of her actions
Living for today and not tomorrow's satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowing her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say she's about to run away and never come back.

Runaway love
Don't keep on runnin'
Runnin'
Don't keep on running

I know how you feel,
I've been there I was runnin' away too
I will run away with you
Runaway
Runaway Love

Don't keep running away
I'll run away with you, if you want me too

Yea, I can only image what you're going through ladies,
Sometimes I feel like running away myself,
So do me a favor right now and close your eyes,
And picture us running away together,
when we come back everything is gonna be okay,
Open your eyes.......

yeah i went crazy hah
but ain't it a nice video ?
apparently the posters about the missing kids are real :O

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:04

i wanna do a disappearing act and run away
thn maybe i wont be so troubled
and perhaps i finally wont be afriad to cry
cause honestly
i dont wanna keep laughing so that i wont cry
i just wanna let it all out
and start anew
i wanna run away
to somewhere i can be me
and i dont have to pretend
like i always do
fag.
maybe it's cos of O's im being like this
so freaking stressed
and tired
and wanting to be irresponsible again
not good

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright here, there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me, I don't want to play.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.



it's been a bad bad baddddd day today ):
tsk, i've been feeling depressed lately
and it's been going on for quite awhile D:
but i cant stop laughing
cause if i do
i'll start crying
we don't want that to happen now , do we ?

and yupp i freaking feel like running away
tsk.
i cant be like tht
otherwise people will start worrying about me
and that's not nice
especially whn they got their own crap to fight with
ugh.
i shall stop being depressed here
and start getting high again
somehow

on the bright side
royston's being a sweetheart FOR ONCE
and has decided to teach me the guitar
muahahha
i'll steal his guitar soon after
yeahyeah jack of all trades master of none
but its funn larhhs
and after that i can say that
i can play the piano [just a weee bit]
and the guitar
hahah and sing and dance and go crazy
bwahahah
rights.
getting retarded

ohman. tell me what should i do ?
im so confused
high one moment and depressed the next
im freaking lost
and its like i freaking cant find my way back

ohman. i seriously should shuddup sometimes....

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 17:32

Sunday, 29 March 2009

Yesterday

had uncle robert's surprise birthday party
funny like nobody's business hah !
he was stunned shocked etc
but he didn't cry like me whn i kena by my two groups of sweet darlings(:
royston as usual bullied me like !@#$
rawr !
he retarded larhhs
no reason run up to me and step on my foot
and run off
wth ?
lol crazyy cousinnnnnnnn
hahah !
shall post the pictures whn i get thm from priscilla

today

met daryl again
and was late again
lol but not as bad as last week
this time only 5 mins
hahah
even thn kena scolded by john
zzz ugh
today the group of us keep getting scolded by john larhhs
not really scold cos he didn't raise his voice
which is worse
thn jinren called me ask me go lunch with him
but i couldn't
i think he's madddd at me now....
sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy D:
i owe you lunch againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
which means i owe you like TWO lunches ? lol
you better be touched cos i dont anyhow treat people lunch one lorhhs

went out with family and mum was in a bad mood
i dont know why
*points at dad and brother*
hahah
came home and wanted to nap for awhile thn wake up at 3 to study
ended up oversleeping till quite late
zomg.
had dinner with family again
came home and studay again

im such a good gurl
aren't cha all so proud of me
muahahahah !
oh shuddup, retards

'O's are approaching
im freaked like !@#$
cause it's chinese
and my chinese is !@#$
D:


boy, im glad we cleared things up
we're drifting apart
but i really hope we still can get back on track
2 years ain't no joke
so i really hope we'd stay strong

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:07

Friday, 27 March 2009

this post is one depressing one D:
don't mind me heh
so unless if you wanna get depressed too,
don't read the next post(:

you know who you darlings are(:

you guys have always been there for me
always always always
looking out for me and my ass
catching me
picking me up from the floor
fixing me back together
entertaining my ridiculous phonecalls at 3am
covering my back henever i need it
encouraging me
protecting me from everyone who seems dangerous [which is almost everyone ?]

even though i scream at you guys
and tell you not to do stuff for me
[stalking guys i like to make sure they're nice]
you still do it anyway
now i guess, all of us are depressed
upset, unhappy, regretful and all that

i freaking feel like crying
because of all of it
all of us are like down and out
especially in relationships
be it love life or whatnot
and here i am being a lousy friend
too caught up in myself again
im sorry man

i dont know what to do or what to say
for once i'm rendered speechless
i love you guys like madddddddd
and i know it's a pretty retarded thing to do
but when you're upset,
i get upset
and start feeling like i want to cryyyy
at least give me points for being nice enough to cry for you can ?
hahah

but there's one thing i know
we'll stick together
foever and ever and ever
hah ! wont you enjoy that ?
ohshuddup

we wont give up on love
cause it isn't like us to do that
we'll just fall thn we'll bounce back up again
typical of us
we wont give up on life
cause we know life just has too much to offer
we'll probably get side-track every now and thn
but we'll pull each other back
cause that's just what we do

i try to tell myself
that i've cried enough
but honestly when people ask me stuff that i really dont want to answer
and you guys aren't there to dig me out
i cant smile and fake it like i always do
you know what topic i'm talking about
yes, that topic
the one that's disgustingly horrible

you guys will always give a vague answer for me
and drag me away to let me settle down
it's not that i still like those guys or anything
it's the hurt that i cant handle

more thn once have you guys picked me up and fixed me back
and no matter how depressed you guys feel
you guys always manage to fix me back
and i feel so freaking helpless
cause i cant do anything to make you guys happy now


ohman. ugh.
i really don't know what to say or do to make you feel better

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:45

im tired, moodless and unfeeling
okay not unfeeling
just feel like running away again
like im so freaking confused that i dont wanna care anymore
ugh.

anyways
...
i've got nothing to say.
crap
hahah !

waitwaitwait
got alot of things to say
just dont want say only
well not here anyway
cause robin and edward will force it out of me
even though they're feeling depressed as well

dont deny it you gay retards
i'm blur but im not blind

eitherways thanks for always being there for me(:
sammy and grace too
hahah

man. i'll probably turn what i wanna say into some prose or something
thn you can go figure it out on my other blog. gahhhhhh

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:35

Thursday, 26 March 2009

okay check out this guy
he is freaking HAWT
LOL
like F-R-E-A-K-I-N-G H-A-W-T
seriously
hahah !

my brother showed it to me and for ONCE
im smiling that he did hahah !
so shuddup. i gave you credit already



ain't he hothothot ?!
hahah !

don't worry parrot, you're still cuter :P

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:01

Something that they deserve more
Give a little like it's become a chore
Don't demand things
And walk yourself out the door

I fell flat on my face too many times
Left with nothing but some cheap perfume
Now you cry, now you need me
Now that perfume's not cheap
But I told you...

If you wanted to be my only one
If you wanted to see this happen
Maybe you, you should've tried harder
If you thought I would leap into your arms everytime I would see your face
Then maybe you, you should've tried harder

Go on, prove it, I'd love to see you try
Convince me that you gave me the world
I tried and tried but you never opened your eyes
You stand tall like you've won some kind of award
But really I've never seen someone so short of a dollar
If you gave me some more
But I told you...

If you wanted to be my only one
If you wanted to see this happen
Maybe you, you should've tried harder
If you thought I would leap into your arms everytime I would see your face
Then maybe you, you should've tried harder

Something that they deserve more
Give a little bit

If you wanted to be my only one
If you wanted to see this happen
Maybe you, you should've tried harder
If you thought I would leap into your arms everytime I would see your face
Then maybe you should've tried harder.

i didn't get marks for my 'choices' compo
:O
which is a good/bad thing i guess
it's abit confusing
even i say so myself
cause it didnt have no editing
so i'll probably clear it up and post it on the other blog
whn i get it back of course

another teacher marked it
not mrsGopal
and did you know what she said ?
the other teacher i mean.
"are you sure that they wrote these? they are too good to be true!"
just cause we're from broadrick
screw that fag !
prejudiced man !

what make her think that since we're from a neighbourhood school,
we cant write as well as those from
maris stella [sorry edward] or RGS [sorry des] ?!
i bet you that we could even be better than some of them !
hahah so says my ego :D
eitherways, she's a fag. whoever she is.
i hope the next one isn't like that. =/

beverly is like suddenly so inlove with mrsGopal
hahah ! she's like looking forward to english all the time now
hahahah !
mrsGopal isn't mean larhhs
she comes in to our class and laugh all the time
even when she scolds us she's smiling.
LOL, hilarious.

i've been feeling so confused these days
like a rollar coaster ride.
when im with him
im high up,
when i cant find him
im down low.
thn again,
who am i to say anything ?

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 17:02

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

I suppose we might have fallen in love,
Only if we were given the chance.
But, fearful of the possibilities,
We didn’t say a thing,
Afraid we’d break this fragile thing we call friendship.

it's a newwwwww one hahah !
okay so it's not done
i'm still working on it
but still hahah(:

my leg's screwed again
i nearly couldn't make it home today
and now,

....

i cant feel it at all.
!@#$
shit man
how am i supposed to go school ?!
argh.
i hate feeling helpless
working dammit ! some leg you are !

shuxin wants a 300-page story for her birthday
my darling girl
are you mad ?
hahah short stories are fine
long ones i get bored.
hahah !
but we'll see okay ? :D
be like damn touched now(:

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 18:09

Sunday, 22 March 2009

the plan didnt work
-.-
we were late anyway
andandand
we were rushing like mad cause there was praise and worship
butbutbut
it was horrible
sorry but yeah
all worship songs
everyone was dead
seriously no life today.... =/
LOL

ohohoh !
i finally got my voice backkk
hahah
it's been flat the past few days
now it back to normallllllllll :DD
hahahah

alright
i've got to go chiong my english
ugh.

my playlist's play leona lewis now ... ):
nostalgic man...

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the risk that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love


it brings back memories
memories that i dont wish to remember
you try and close your eyes
but like a never-ending film,
it keeps playing

you struggle to wipe it all away
but it keeps coming back to haunt you
screaming you cover your ears
in a desperate bid to hide from it
it plays on reminding you, taunting you

):
screw leona lewis man

shuxin said this
"stead or not, still like you're together already lah"
oh i wonder.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:05

Saturday, 21 March 2009

okay
so the plan for tomorrow morning is
meet daryl at the shelter at 8.50 so that we both be on time for confi class
for once
lol
we have an annoying habit of being late...
hahah

now i'm feeling.........
lonely....
despite the fact that i'm talking to both daryl and dien
....
hah.

boy , is that what you really want ?
for us to go out with other people ?
you're making me so confused
and i don't know what to do

will post again to let you all know if our plan works.
we also decided to give each other wake-up calls
obviously whoever wakes-up first calls the other person immediately larhhs
thn we wondered what would happen if the both of us slept in and couldnt wake up
...hahah
go figure.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:48

go dien :D
hahah he got 3rd place for all-events(:
congrats

but he has this really annoying habit
everytime we meet
he enjoys telling my life story to people
ugh.
so apparently the whole of seletar knows me
and i haven't got no clue who they are
except for alden and xian and the maths guy whose name i have forgotten :P
hahaha

it's like last year all over again
except instead of 5n1
this time its seletar
ugh. dumb dien

anyway
spent time with my tuition teacher yesterday D:
she's evil, i swear muahahaha ! :DD
i got to chiong my homework today
ugh. im screwed.
shuddup , i know .

i've got a runny nose now
ugh. my dog's annoying me
he's doing it on purpose i swear
hahaha !

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 12:08

Friday, 20 March 2009

the tea's gone cold now
the music fades into the night
you feel the cooling breeze against your skin
despite that, you still feel the heat

new one !!!!!! yay ! :DD
when i'm supposed to complete my english too
damn :P

hahah who cares :D
me.... ahahah
whacked.

yes. im high and crazy now(:

view it here

hope you enjoy it
it's another one where even the writer is clueless about why she wrote it
sooooooooo
i want comments and your deductions
muaahahahah

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 11:54

i hurt my hip again
!@#$%^&*()
it hurts D:
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i think it was cause i stood for like !@#$% hours
watching robin and aloy and felix and elaina bowl
DD:

met kaiyuan yesterday
gah. annoying person.
i am refusing to talk about him.

about 4+ took the train down to yishun
was supposed to have a meeting at john's house
but it cancelled cause not many were going
so decided to go to yishun to support my darling sister(:

reach yishun rather early , about... 5.05 ?
lol
lazy to wait for shutter bus so decide to take the bus thr

.......

ended up getting lost
and catching a cab there D:
ughhhhhhhhhhh.
reached there like 45mins late.
but not late enough
since i stood thr for like 2-3 hours
to watch them bowl
now my hip hurtsssssssssssssss

see robin ? what im willing to go through for you ? aren't you touched ?

missed emaths lesson cause of this.
argh.

hark, look whose the one thinking too far

For the record, when I'm with you
Things are looking better
For once everything is brighter
Than the darkness before you

I can't stop talking to myself
I'm a desperate cry for help


i wonder,
do you feel as confused as me ?
im curious,
do i cause mixed feelings in you like you do in me ?

but then again
maybe you aren't bothered at all

The drinks are flowing, just like the river
Then she keeps going
The whole night ends with a blur
She's got no limit
She thinks she's so tough
Can't walk a straight line
At the end of the night she's rough
Her dress whispers reckless
That night starts now as she slips on her necklace

Josey, don't you worry
It's just a phase you're going through
Some day you'll know just what to do
Josey, it's alright
Slap the hand that just keeps pouring
It doesn't matter, just do something

She's ready to roll, tonight is different
She'll start it off slow to keep herself in check
Oh no, oh no: it's two for one
She starts the show
And now from this moment on, she's done
Her dress whispers reckless
That night starts now as she slips on her necklace

Josey, don't you worry
It's just a phase you're going through
Some day you'll know just what to do
Josey, it's alright
Slap the hand that just keeps pouring
It doesn't matter, just do something

The party is tonight and she thinks they're playing her song
The party is tonight and it's playing all night long

Josey, don't you worry
It's just a phase you're going through
Some day you'll know just what to do
Josey, it's alright
Slap the hand that just keeps pouring
It doesn't matter, just do something.

lol , look at this
it's the treadmill dance :DD



imagine if we did this to our school's treadmill :D
i think zainal will murder me
hahaha !

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 09:31

Wednesday, 18 March 2009

okay.
it seems my writing prowess wont show until i blog about today
fag.
either that, or im VERY tired
gahhhh.

had school as usual. bio today. mrlau kept picking on me
i swear, he hates me for failing my exams =/
whatever.
before that, went for athletics and did NOTHING
i swear again, im useless there.
ugh.

bio finally ended mercifully at 12
not that im ungrateful or anything
just that i was damn sleepy
my eyes were red and watery man !
went for lunch with radhika ziyu and group
thn headed home to shower
and met dumbmark at paya lebar
muahahah

walked around and fooled around alot
FINALLY bought the tickets
cause we were taking extremely long to choose which show to watch
settled for 'Suspect X'
i still want to watch 'Marley and Me'

it was alright
reminded me of 'Death Note' but without cute L and death gods
i'd give it 5/10
5 cause the science professor was cute xP
muahahahahahah
movie ended at 6pm. gahh. it was 2hrs long man !

walked somemore thn called edward
i saw augustine ! the evil person ! rawr !
send dumbmark off and waited for edward
ohman. i swear. the next time you're sending me off. i dont care.

had dinner with edward and decided to be a goodgood girl
and come home early
muahahaha
aren't you proud of me people ? :DD

but it was still abit early
so me and edward sat somewhere random
and started yakking about love life and all
i told you he'd murder me for that post !!
hahah
okay. now that i've blogged
pleaseohpleaseohplease
let me write wonderfully amazingly awesome
for english homework DD:

warm. strong. that's what you feel like to me
i'm smiling again
but like a rollar coaster ride
it goes down again

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:16

Tuesday, 17 March 2009

been having school the past few days
i've been a really good girl
believe it or not
i haven't gone out at all
unless it's to get my ass to school
i haven't been out late
unless its with my parents

but of course that's all gonna change tommorrow
or maybe tonight
which ever
depands on me, if i even feel like stepping out of the house and away from this machine
bwahahahah
i haven't gots a clue on what to blog about
actually i have
but i'm not sure if i should blog about it....

.....
.....
.....

ahh what the hell
i'll just blog about it
muahahah

To : Edward , my wife(:
how much do you like her ?
its you and me all over again
you're just not willing to go the distance for her
just like us
i suppose its no use dragging it up now
but i
really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really
hope that you wont make the same mistake again
if you really like her thn go after her
dont waste your life away by thinking
she's happy and that's all that matters
cause how do you know that she is ?
maybe she's just using him as an excuse
wife dear, please wake up
this concerns your happiness
don't be a fool

Your ever loving husband xDD

hahah he's gonna murder me for that
.... no, not only the husband and wife thing
the whole post actually muahahahah

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 15:42

guess it isn't only me
but every other girl out there
our hearts you've broken
it's all a game to you isn't it ?

that's for all the brokenhearted girls out there
HA !
:DD

screw guys and their egoistic selves
muahahah

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 15:05

Monday, 16 March 2009

"I hope you do," she says, her voice barely audible above the roaring of cars and murmurings of students, "I really hope you'd die."

You look into her sea-green eyes, shocked to see the barely concealed hatred; hatred meant for you. She stands up, her chair scraping harshly on the floor. Throwing you one last venomous look, she spins and stalks out of the cafe.

lol
now, wasn't that just scary ?
hahah so all you annoying retards out there
better not make me angry
muahahahah
kidding, but not really :P

i like thinking of using that for a new story
problem : i haven't got no clue what to write
LOL and you'd think i've got not enough homework
hahah it's a past time man !
i enjoy writing
like how some enjoy running or reading or whatever
hahah but i can only write short stories
cause i got no commitment to write long ones :P

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:00

It's so amazing the depth of a love that
Covers all of my fears
Perseveres through the darkest of nights
Rescues a soul that is dimmed

But when my strength is exhausted
And all my feelings have all but slipped away
And all that's left but the bones
Is the faith that you're near
That you'll never go away

You speak in the simplest of ways
Though a heart may be hardened
Calloused and burnt to the core
Faith is the hope that I hang onto
To break me from
To break me from my fall

But when my strength is exhausted
And all my feelings have all but slipped away
And all that's left but the bones
Is the faith that you're near
That you'll never go away

Anchor me to the rock to the cornerstone
Firmly held to the ground
Causes things may come and go
but your love for me will never ever go

But when my strength is exhausted
And all my feelings have all but slipped away
And all that's left but the bones
Is the faith that you're near
That you'll never go away


i dont wanna care anymore , you know that ?

rawr.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:13

Sunday, 15 March 2009

10 Easy Ways to Stay Healthy

1. Start saying 'Yes' to everything like Danny Wallace
2. Join the 'Free Hugs' campaigne with Juan Mann
3. Tell your loved ones that you love them everyday
4. Tell your enemies that you'd like to be their friends
5. Have lunch with that weird guy/girl that everyone seems to avoid
6. Smile and say 'Hello' or 'Good day' to everyone you see on the street
7. Compliment someone about something good about themselves [stranger or not] and mean it
8. Dream the most outrageous dream and fufil it
9. Smile when you pick up the phone, the person on the other line would be able to hear it
10. Believe in love at first sight

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:11

Friday
had dinner at T2 with family.
was looking for some restaurant called the 'Wild Olives'
or something like that
but couldn't find it at all [fag ?]
so ended up eating at breeks
i'd give it a 6/10 lol
for ambiance and nothing else
maybe for food presentation
lol
thn before that edward [my darling wife]
and sammy [mine, not clifton's] called
and asked me go sammy's house
so after dinner i chiong there
arent you touched ? :D
they were deciding what movie to watch
ended up with me choosing 'The Victim'
screwed show
damn freaking scary :O
seriously
we were on the sofa with edward in the middle
cause he was the guy and the 'safest' person to get protection from =.=
ended up he more scared thn us
LOL
wife !!! argh. useless
BUT we managed to watch finish the show :DD
and at a damn early time too
cause when i called my dad to pick me up, he sounded damn suprised
LOL it was 11+ that time
i think he like expected us to end at 12 or 1 or 2+++ lol
send edward to his aunt's placed and headed home(:

saturday
went to club in the evening to cheer for the team
we lost D: screwit
ahh well you win some you lose some
next round kick their asses pretty please

today
did all the usual stuff lol
but had lunch with jinren, pop, mark and all
thn headed back to church to dump myself in the prayer room for 2 hours
rawr.
thn went to nallur road at 3 for the meeting
it was damn draining today
i came back and almost didn't want to go for mass at all
seriously wanted to just go home cause the session was really draining
but imma good girl
i went for mass :DD
hahah
had dinner with family again
and i've got school tommorrow
rawr ! screwyou holidays



zomg. why suddenly ask about the past man ?
ugh. if jinren wasn't there i'd die mans...
it still hurts
hurts to know that i wasn't enough for them
that someone else was better
it hurts
that i wasn't good enough.

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don't know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I'll be okay

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:37

Thursday, 12 March 2009

here's an issue i've been meaning to talk about
it's about those 'friends' who keep butting in in other people's relationships
why am i talking about this ?
cause idiots keep asking me to repair THEIR relationship
and knowing me
i'd stupidly go do it
and get fag-ed up
thanks to them

but, i'm straying off the subject
now about these 'friends',
IF you'd call them that,
i've got a wee widdle bone to pick with you

first off
you judge the person that your friend like
how you pick on the partner of his/her choice
you pick on their eyes
you pick on their nose
you pick on their mouth
zomg. you even pick on how they laugh
[how digustingly wide they open their mouths when they laugh etc]
now, i'm wondering,
is it your relationship with that person
or YOURS ?

secondly
you whisper to your friend about her poor choice [let's use a girl subject, shall we?]
how the guy has this and that bad habit
how lame his actions are
how immatured he is
obviously, she would have noticed these 'poor' qualities
or she wouldn't even be with the guy ?

third of all
you try and 'persuade' your friend to re-think about her choice
you tell her about how miserable her life would be with the guy
c'mon, seriously
who cares ?
they're CLEARLY happy with each other
isn't that supposed to be the most important thing of all ?
i mean she IS your friend

finally
you keep trying to 'protect' your friend
this is the case, especially after break-ups.
you glare at the guy
curse and swear at him
point the middle finger at him
tarnish his rep , good name
and spread vicious rumours about him
have you ever thought that you might be hurting your friend ?
have you ever wondered
that maybe your friend was just putting on a brave front
so that you wouldn't have to put up
with her endless contradictary rants about the guy
and how one minute she's cursing him
and the next she'd be crying over him ?

so c'mon
why dont you really re-evaluate yourselves
and be that REAL friend that your friend really needs
he/she doesn't need your criticism
he/she just needs your advice [if asked] and your support

fags.

thanks to them i just broke my vow to stop posting rubbish
ugh.

to jade, edward, robin, grace, shuxin etc
no i'm not talking about you guys
you know i lovelovelove you guys and your dumb comments :P
hahaha
except the part on how you decide to like the guy as well
and tell me stuff like 'i love (insert person's name here)' *ahem*robin*ahem*
otherwise im alright :D
cause whenever you guys say anything bad about the guy
it goes in on ear and right out the other(:
unless its really serious

anyways
this dumb post is dedicated to two idiots
who can't seem to make up their friggin' minds
cause of their damn friends
who decide to add their insignificant bits and pieces
rawr
it's the couples relationship not theirs

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 18:06

okay
SOMEONE complained i blog too much rubbish
and not enough about my school work homework etc
*ahem*grace*ahem*
shan't say the name in case she come murder me again :P
hahaha

got back results today [happy ? i'm blogging about school]
screw it up like mad [dont kill me man]
but i passed english and human so im happy [hey, imma girl of simple pleasures ;P]
my physics improved by abit and cause it improved im even happier [hey, better thn nothing]
i realized that i didnt fail my english paper after all
but i passed by one mark [at least im not happy about that]
mrlau spoke to me about my results AGAIN [yeahyeah]
fag. not mrlau dumb. me larhhs
bleahhs

so i blogged about school at your request
there's really nothing to talk about other thn english
cause the other subjects make me depressed
lol hahah
mrzainal forced me to go throw the dumb discus today
argh. and i have to go again tomorrow
dont wanna
bleahhs

the sec2s and 3s are go off to the lousy camp tomorrow
aww sad
hahah !

don't worry. i'll either flip through the bible to find you or i can always go to your church's bird cage or the bird park if i miss you
muahahahaha !

league's on saturday
it's on homeground
will be off to support
cause i lovelovelove you guys :D
hahah
aren't you touched ?
i know the fantastic four are
:P the fab fives are useless :DD

zomg. fag. it's so freaking hot. i feel like going for a swim
ohshuddup you.

yesterday 11march
went for the follow-up
ugh. i got physio to go to
the reason is damn dumb
me and everyone else are laughing about it




.....








my butt muscles aren't functioning properly, that's why
LOL it's retarded i tell you
hahahah rawr dumb or what
cause of that i cant walk properly
argh. i feel like a weakling now
D; ugh.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 16:20

Tuesday, 10 March 2009

is it real
what i'm feeling
or is it just a mirage
cause in a moment your single touch
could warm and charm my heart

it's the way you laugh
ad the way you smile
that's got me
and i think that i'm falling
and i'm going under

yeah i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely in love
yeah, i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely in love
with you

i hope this is forever
a lifetime ahead of us
and i'll give you my hand if you promise
to love me till death do us part
i'm thinking that we could be in love
sause my heart's beating faster
and i'm losing my breath

i think i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely in love
yeah, i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely
i'm falling freely in love
with you

fifty years from now
i'll still be holding your hand
and i'll remember
the day we fell in love

i think i'm falling for you
i think i'm falling for you




Falling For You - Alarice

lol it's been going round and round my head
hahah

he called again today
after so long
i knw it's him
but i cant be bothered anymore
i bumped into him today
but i wasn't afraid anymore
i guess i was just afraid to see myself without him
but now i realized, i didn't have to be after all

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:38

robin, i hate her.
ugh.

had road-run / cross-country / whatever you want to call it today
my legs hurt
even though i walked the whole thing
zzz... shan't comment on that man
my cute cute boy[chengan] won first :P lol
hahah
drumil got first too.
mark also won
he kept rubbing it into my face all the way home
rawr !
cant remember much cause i was day-dreaming as usual during the prize-giving :P
until it came to my level hahah
thn i cheered like mad for my class
radhika, beverly, tabitha and ziyu all won :D
yay ! congrats people:D

my class did very well
we won overall for both boys and girls
and we had lots of team spirit too
despite being segregated into china students, indonesian students etc
i guess we knew whn to 'become one' lol
which is a really good thing

i guess most of the athletics people did well
zainal was very happy about that
seeing how he happily irritated me after that
i swear, if i could earn a dollar for everytime he irritated me
i would be rich by now

i just told dien about my CA result
D:
he was mad and encouraging at the same time
and i'm going to get it from him this saturday D:
he wants me to get A1s ):
which isn't impossible
but at the same time, its a mammoth task
its all uphill from here

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:19

Monday, 9 March 2009

i'm wondering
can we actually keep this promise we made?
or will we end up keeping it
for the sake of holding on?
maybe it's too soon to ask
but i'm just so afraid

11.55pm 8march
that promise was made
but for how long
i wonder

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:12

it's official sweethearts
i screwed up all my tests
fag.
even english.
yeah, i know.
how on earth did i do that ?
no idea.
ugh.

im moodless now
dont bother.

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cuz my heart's been through it before
Am I'm just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true
Could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love

And I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love

It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say...

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:51

Sunday, 8 March 2009

oh screw this month why dont we
i'm so freaking confused and mixed up
and i freaking dont know what to do
ugh.

other thn church
i feel like i screwed everything else up
but dont worry
i'll screw up church soon
fag.

and damn.
im getting random thoughts
like "ooh blogging's getting addictive"
or "i feel like eating soba"
rawr im weird today.
[not everyday ass.] - refering to the usual group of retards
bleahhs

im so freaking tired too
thanks to someone
hahahah !
its your turn to say you ass

and despite feeling crapped up
i can still smile
thanks to you
argh.
screw you ):
in a nice and horrible way
dont ask me how

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 15:59

08-03-09 ; 0224
boy are you sure you can wait ?

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 08:09

Saturday, 7 March 2009

Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone


found it finally ?

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:48

):
that's how im feeling now
no wait
more like this
:S
confused
ugh. i hate this insecurities

and i cant find any song or words to describe this.
ugh. i hate this part right here
doesn't really describes it either

boy, i wish i could tell you
what i really need to say
im not the person you think i am
my secrets are all wrapped up
and you only see the wrapping not the things underneath
the things you need to see
im no good for you
and you'd be better off without me

damn. D:
no guts

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:09

When there's nowhere else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one
Understands where you are

Someone loves you
even when you don't think so
don't you know
you got Me and Jesus
by your side
through the fight
you will never be alone
on your own
you got me and Jesus

After all that we've been through
Be now you know I've doubted too
But everytime my head was in my
Hands you said to me

Someone loves you
even when you don't think so
don't you know
you got Me and Jesus
by your side
through the fight
you will never be alone
on your own
you got me and Jesus

Hold on to what we got
This is worth any cost so
Make the most of life
That's borrowed
Love like there's no tomorrow

Someone loves you
even when you don't think so
don't you know
you got Me and Jesus
by your side
through the fight
you will never be alone
on your own
you got me and Jesus

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 13:33

grace said that she might be able to go with me to CGH :DD
now im not lonely anymore :D
hahah !
thanks grace(:

finally managed to finish fort project
i hate it so bad
whoever tht discovered it should die man
i just submitted my group's final draft to msHema
gawd. that was p-a-i-n-f-u-l
i woke up at 9 despite sleeping at 2am
so that i could complete it on time
and can go out later
heh !

finally got desiree's birthday pictures :D







presenting the fabulous five :P

from left : edwin, robin, desiree, edward, joshua

my wife betrayed me mans. dumb edward :D

it's the fantastic four :D LOL

from left: sammy, me, desiree, elaina



we love you desiree:D

gave edwin a surprise birthday celebration today
he really was totally clueless :DD
his face was like stunned whn i brought in the cake
hahaha
ohman edwin you better be grateful
i walked in the rain just to get that cake for you
you can ask everyone else
i was soaking wet

retarded aloy and augustine saw me walking in the rain
they are damn smart
can slow down, wave to me and drive off [they were in a car]
rawr ! asses !

anyways
everyone said the cake was nice :DD
yay me ! hahaha !
hope you enjoyed yourself edwin :DD

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 12:43

Friday, 6 March 2009

"let me tell you something, sweetie,"
she whispers quietly into the night
barely looking at you in your eyes
"i'm not shy. in fact i'm just the opposite,"
she smiles that secret smile of hers and says
"i'm scared, actually."

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:02

had a nice chat with jinlee today
he told me about a nightmare he had
it wasn't really a nightmare larhhs
it was like something out of those korean/ taiwan drama serials
LOL

but it didnt hit me thn
but it hit me now
yeah im slow

eitherways
his dream really reflected what's going on in robin's life right now larhhs
and im like the one who slapped his girl
but of course that part didnt happen
but i really want to do it

cause in jinlee's dream the girl was alright larhhs
in robin's case.....................................................
dont say
i'll get pissed again

isn't it ironic how life likes to make a fool out of all of us ?
we turn around expecting innocent to be there
but instead we find something else that's totally unexpected

it's like grace's dream all over
strange .
and freaky by some measure.

right i'll stop here
or i'll be rambling in english that no one understands
but is politically correct

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:04

Thursday, 5 March 2009

ROBIN TEO !
dont you dare die
you die
i'll kill you
when i reach heaven of course (:


is anyone free next wednesday ?
i need to go Changi hospital
[the new one retard]
i need to go for my check-up
again
yeah
and i'll be alone
with no mummy or daddy
and i'll be very scared
:D
SO
anyone free ? :DD
hahaha seriously, i need someone to go with me
or i'll be really lonely(:
[shuddup mark]

sms / call me already
of course whn im not in class thanks :DD

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:55

Wednesday, 4 March 2009

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out


edward and grace
aww thanks guys(:
hahah
you really made my day now :D

i came home like half happy half depressed
drepressed cause i freaking failed my english for the first time in my entire life
zomg. like wth ?? argh

happy, cause well...
hahah
someone gave chocolate today :DD
hahaha
awww :P
it's payment for my wake up call hah !

either ways im happier now
cause of the lovely things you guys tagged(:
you guys are lovely lovely lovely(:
hahah ! love ya !



so tell me who am i to you sweetheart
because its just so impossible
and yet im still smiling despite it all
figures doesn't it ?
so tell me pretty please sweetheart,
what are we?

you only want what you can't have
you only desire those things that are outta reach

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:56

Tuesday, 3 March 2009

i suddenly feel depressed
cause i read someone's blog
and realized that, other thn those in my class,
i have officially lost all contact with my primary school classmates
lol
like i never talk to them at all ?
): which is damn saddening
and thn suddenly im like damn scared to graduate
it's like after waiting for this year for 3 years
suddenly i dont wanna graduate after all
thn im like damn terrified that i'll lose touch with all my secondary school friends
D: depression state now man
ugh.

love you all like nuts.
wont ever forget anything.
had funky fun with you all(:
wish it'll last

oh forgot to post,
mrsGopal said our english papers were very badly done
man
im screwed larhhs

argh.

moodswings. shingleling

LOL random hah !
okay shall shuddup here
if not SOME people will call me crazy
*ahem*robin, shuxin, edward, mark*ahem*
let's not say their names :D
bwahahahaha

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:48

i screwed up my english, bio and ss paper
):

dont ask.

plus it seems like a bad season for love
ohman
im really sadded cause of them
its like i love them so much
and when they get hurt i get hurt along with them
screwit

There's a man dying on the side of the road,
Won't make it home tonight,
He was driving fast on a cellular phone
That's how he lived his life.
While he was hanging by a thread
These were the final words he said,

My girl turned sweet sixteen today
She's beautiful, so beautiful,
It might get rough some times but I hope she keeps her faith
(hope she keeps her faith)
I wish I had the chance to say to her
Life is too short,
So take the time and appreciate.

And there's a woman crying on the kitchen floor,
She got a call tonight
And she trembling out side her daughter's door
Walks in and hold her tight,
Wondering how and where to start
Is there a way to shield her heart

My girl turned sweet sixteen today
She's beautiful, so beautiful,
It might get rough some times but I hope she keeps her faith
(hope she keeps her faith)
I wish I had the chance to say to her
Life is too short,
So take the time and appreciate.

Is anybody loving will
Get hurt along the way
Don't be afraid to open up
And use the time you have before it fades
Show your love today

My girl turned sweet sixteen today
She's beautiful, so beautiful,
It might get rough some times but I hope she keeps her faith
(hope she keeps her faith)
I wish I had the chance to say to her
Life is too short,
So take the time and appreciate.
Life is too short,
So take the time to appreciate.



bleahhs
i haven't heard this song in a long while...
hahah
love it
but i still lurve Owl City more

like an introvert, i drew my overshirt

haaha lurve his quirky tunes and lyrics :D

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 18:37

Robin
i hate her sooooooo bad
and i really shouldn't use the word hate
cause its very strong
AND
i shouldn't be hating people
it's not healthy
BUT
i hate her sooooooo bad
Top 10 Reasons Why I Hate Her

10. you can do some much better than her

9 . she keeps hurting you

8 . she makes you upset

7 . she doesn't appreciate what you do for her

6 . she's just so selfish, always only think of herself

5 . she doesn't trust you despite the things you sacrifice for her

4 . she's the only one who can make you smile for no reason

3 . the day she talks to you, is the day she makes your day [ EVERY FREAKING DAY]

2 . she's the only one who can make you this upset

1 . the simple freaking fact that you love her

screw her a thousand time over
i hate her so bad for doing this to you
and at the same time
i cant kill her cause you'd be upset
she's a real b****
sorry but yeah
you know how much i hate it when she does this kind of shit to you
and you know i dont like her cause she always hurts you
c'mon and leave her already
she's so not worth it robin
there are some many other girls that are so much better thn her
i hate her so bad , i wish she never existed

Xinyi
its your choice sweetheart
nobody said relationships were smooth
nobody said there were easy
nobody said they would hurt

he misses you bad
and i know you miss him too
in every relationship you have
its a risk you've got to take
sometimes you're lucky
sometimes you're not

and it's like this is your relationship with him
not his relationship with your friends
and if they are truly your friends
they'd would be there to support you
and they'd back you up no matter what choice you make

don't be afraid to say yes
cause you might end up regretting it for the rest of your life
of course if he hurts you agian i'll kill him , no questions asked

but it's your choice
dont let other people decide it for you

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 18:18