mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Tuesday, 31 March 2009
i wanna do a disappearing act and run awaythn maybe i wont be so troubled
and perhaps i finally wont be afriad to cry
cause honestly
i dont wanna keep laughing so that i wont cry
i just wanna let it all out
and start anew
i wanna run away
to somewhere i can be me
and i dont have to pretend
like i always do
fag.
maybe it's cos of O's im being like this
so freaking stressed
and tired
and wanting to be irresponsible again
not goodDon't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright here, there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.
Don't tell me, I don't want to play.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.
And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.
And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.
I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.
it's been a bad bad baddddd day today ):
tsk, i've been feeling depressed lately
and it's been going on for quite awhile D:
but i cant stop laughing
cause if i do
i'll start crying
we don't want that to happen now , do we ?and yupp i freaking feel like running away
tsk.
i cant be like tht
otherwise people will start worrying about me
and that's not nice
especially whn they got their own crap to fight with
ugh.
i shall stop being depressed here
and start getting high again
somehowon the bright side
royston's being a sweetheart
FOR ONCEand has decided to teach me the guitar
muahahha
i'll steal his guitar soon after
yeahyeah jack of all trades master of none
but its funn larhhs
and after that i can say that
i can play the piano [just a weee bit]
and the guitar
hahah and sing and dance and go crazy
bwahahah
rights.
getting retarded
ohman. tell me what should i do ?
im so confused
high one moment and depressed the next
im freaking lost
and its like i freaking cant find my way backohman. i seriously should shuddup sometimes....
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 17:32