Friday, 27 March 2009

this post is one depressing one D:
don't mind me heh
so unless if you wanna get depressed too,
don't read the next post(:

you know who you darlings are(:

you guys have always been there for me
always always always
looking out for me and my ass
catching me
picking me up from the floor
fixing me back together
entertaining my ridiculous phonecalls at 3am
covering my back henever i need it
encouraging me
protecting me from everyone who seems dangerous [which is almost everyone ?]

even though i scream at you guys
and tell you not to do stuff for me
[stalking guys i like to make sure they're nice]
you still do it anyway
now i guess, all of us are depressed
upset, unhappy, regretful and all that

i freaking feel like crying
because of all of it
all of us are like down and out
especially in relationships
be it love life or whatnot
and here i am being a lousy friend
too caught up in myself again
im sorry man

i dont know what to do or what to say
for once i'm rendered speechless
i love you guys like madddddddd
and i know it's a pretty retarded thing to do
but when you're upset,
i get upset
and start feeling like i want to cryyyy
at least give me points for being nice enough to cry for you can ?
hahah

but there's one thing i know
we'll stick together
foever and ever and ever
hah ! wont you enjoy that ?
ohshuddup

we wont give up on love
cause it isn't like us to do that
we'll just fall thn we'll bounce back up again
typical of us
we wont give up on life
cause we know life just has too much to offer
we'll probably get side-track every now and thn
but we'll pull each other back
cause that's just what we do

i try to tell myself
that i've cried enough
but honestly when people ask me stuff that i really dont want to answer
and you guys aren't there to dig me out
i cant smile and fake it like i always do
you know what topic i'm talking about
yes, that topic
the one that's disgustingly horrible

you guys will always give a vague answer for me
and drag me away to let me settle down
it's not that i still like those guys or anything
it's the hurt that i cant handle

more thn once have you guys picked me up and fixed me back
and no matter how depressed you guys feel
you guys always manage to fix me back
and i feel so freaking helpless
cause i cant do anything to make you guys happy now


ohman. ugh.
i really don't know what to say or do to make you feel better

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:45