mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Wednesday, 10 June 2009
30 days to that day
love's like this
it can make you feel unbelievable high over the moon
it can drag you down under and make you want to kill yourself
mumsy dearest found out about my cuttings
or rather
to make it clearer to the denser people out there
me cutting myself
thanks to that
ASS DIENargh. im like
seriously pissed with him
at the same time i know that he just cares about me
but for now i just want to be pissed
cause it's like losing a part of myself
that i really dont want to share just yet
you could say losing control of my lifebut hell larhhs
it would come out sooner or later
mummy didnt say anything
just said tht i wouldnt be able to wear nice clothes
cause of all the scars
i think she's at a loss too
and she doesnt know how to handle it either
considering all the crap and all
gahhh.
who'd knew that i come from a dysfunctional family
so dear reader[s]
imma cutter
occassionally hah !
trying to stop
like i promised (looks at a certain group of people)
i havent done it since..... April or so
so you could say im 'clean' for 1 or 2 months
which isn't a really good track record.
the last 'break' lasted.... 9+ months ?
hahah
first question would probably be 'why?'
my answer would be 'go through what i went through
then tell me why the hell not'
second question would be 'pain anort?'
not pain thn i do for wht ? retarded
hahah ahhh... dont know what other kind-of questions you can come up with larhhs
want ask better ask fast
last time im doing this man
once again,
dien please go straight to helli seriously hope you're reading this
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:36