Friday, 31 July 2009

:DD imma gummybear ~
hahah !

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 11:35

Tuesday, 28 July 2009

guess what ? :D
i just got hitched ;D
hahah to my darling xinyi
hahah
now everybody say awwww :DD

28 july 2009 , 10.32pm , and i to you darling

Deny thy father and refuse thy name,
Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,
And I’ll no longer be a Capulet.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:39

Monday, 27 July 2009

If it be love indeed, tell me how much.
There’s beggary in the love that can be reckoned.
I’ll set a bourn how far to be beloved.
Then must thou needs find out new heaven, new earth.
(I.i.14–17)

From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star-crossed lovers take their life,
Whose misadventured piteous overthrows
Doth with their death bury their parents’ strife. . . .
O, I am fortune’s fool! . . .
Then I defy you, stars.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:35

Thursday, 23 July 2009

need to update my links...
=/ hahah yeah im damn lazy

school's a freak
left with 13 weeks
like ohmyfrigginword
ahhhh !

suddenly life doesn't seem fun anymore ):
y'know ? God can be real mean sometimes
i dont get why He wont just
friggin let me die D:
its not that hard
just let th friggin car bang me down
hahah !

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:38

Tuesday, 21 July 2009

gosh .
it's been really tiring
im on the verge of a mental breakdown already
D:
thursday and friday didn't go school at all
cause had veryyyyyyyyy bad headache D:
died on monday due to overload of work and notes to copy
im still dying today
gahh.
O's suck man. D:
im gonna cry soon
hahah !

gahh.
its already july
wth
more like end of july
ohman ohman ohman
tht means i have like ...
... 3 months left
argh !

freak man .
why do O's have to be start in October
argh .
how am i gonna copeeeeeeeeee ?!
gosh !
i cant i cant i friggin' cant !
=/

i think i need anti-depressents
and maybe a hell lota prayers
fag.
):

talk about self-pity.
i cant be like this man
hahah thn again no one's perfect
but still the pressure to set a good example
for others to follow sucks
BIG TIME
tsk .
andandand
i havven't really thought about my core members
gosh i swear
im gonna drop dead soon .

i really dont wish to pick someone i like
but someone He likes
im trying so hard not to judge
but it's difficult sometimes
especially when people are just ARGH !
and the worse part is
when i finally decide between two people,
let's say person A and person B, i pick person A,
person B will suddenly do something to make me stop and think
whether i mafe the right choice or not

and then i have a person C
who makes me feel really tiny and insecure
about my abilities of being a leader
and leading the group
gahh .

it's like wht i told brandon and aloysius
the other night
whatever i do
i do it for Him
so commitment to the group is one thing
and i dont really care if someone cant make it every alternate Sunday
but what i really want to see in the group
is their commitment to God
that even when they've been beaten up badly and left to die [hypothetically of course]
they'll still
turn to God no matter what
and they'll still trust Him to pull them through.
so if i've got that high expectations of them
imagine what kind of expectations i have for myself
dang.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:13

Friday, 17 July 2009

people i need inspiration
gosh to write a story that inspires people
wth ?!
hahah
gahhh

i hope i feel better tomorrow
thn i can go get my chocolatesssssssssssss :DD
heeheehee
gahh

missed school for two days
cause of a baaaaaaaaaaaad headache
im getting chocolates and get-well cards :DD
muahahah !

i can imagine how fast im gonna die
once i go back school
imagine th amount of homework D:

hahah !

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:32

Thursday, 16 July 2009

a little late but yeah.
11 july, saturday came and went
gahh.



It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah


gosh it's been two years already .
i wish i could take back every bad thing that i've said.
at the same time,
i learnt to live like
it's gonna be my last day everyday.
it still hurts.
i'm still guilty as hell,
for the things i could've done,
but didn't do.
i really wish i could say sorry face-to-face.
but that's not really possible isn't it ?
thn again,
its things like these that make me feel like,
there's nothing much left to live for.
so i could pretty much get bang down by a car tomorrow
and honestly not be bothered about it
im not afraid of dying
not anymore.
im leaving it all to Him.
if He wants me home,
i'll go.
im missing you like hell
stuck here wishing you didn't have to go

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:35

Friday, 10 July 2009

1 day left D:

die died died-ed
D:
gahhh.

ohohoh tell you something sweet :DD

"you call me for?"

"dont know. suddenly miss you then call lorhh."

now everybody say awww :DD
hahah !
right shuddup you

anyways
dear girl
not everything's about you all the time
wake up and stop wallowing in self-pity

today was retarded D:
so many people getting into trouble everywhere
tht retarded dumbass freak markyg pointed th middle finger at me
for no reason
wht an ass.
bleahhs

tomorrow is a loooooooooooooong day
D: hope it wont rain
and tht it wont be super hot
but just nice
abit demanding but i think i deserve it lorhhs
heheh
alright
shall go buy dinner for daddy now.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 20:35

Tuesday, 7 July 2009

4 days

im dead
like damn freakin' dead D:
=/

*panic mood*

gosh.
*warning*
this post will be absolutely random.
sooooooo
i screwed MT O level oral
i screwed my homework
i wanna drop dead ):
hahah !

freak day today
actually everyday sucks
thanks to structured
hahah
gossiped about someone today :O
thn speak of th devil he appears
hahah !
yeah im going burn in hell anyway
so afew more wont make much difference
ugh.
contradictory mans.
today i was telling yoshi and mark tht im going straight to heaven
hahah
argh. freaking messed up larhhs
do you know what it's like to be afraid of facing things you dont wish to face?

i need to get candles and flowers
haven't got a friggin' clue what assing type to get
never knew which type he prefered
never really cared thn
too late to ask now
too late for regrets now
living with mistakes made
y'know
i havent got a single picture
to show you
exactly how
friggin' retarded he looked
i remember how we could always tell he was embaressed
hahah
his ears would turn freaking red
damn hilarious

i don't want saturday to come
ugh.

on a higher note thou
mac is soo freaking cute :P
hahah
seeeeeee :DD

Labels: always a day too late

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 21:18