Monday, 28 September 2009

i can friggin cryyyyy
i got an ipod classic
as a present
yes the latest one
brand new one
i can friggin cry D:
all thanks to my dajie / boss
hahah
ohmannnnn
im like super toucheddddd
can cryyyyyy
thankyou veryyyyy muchhhhh ! :DD

O's are around th corner
hah and im supeer screwed
edwin's even more screwed cause his exams are like next week :DD
and me and him are complaining about robin teo
saying he is super duper uber annoying :P

so robin if suddenly you keep sneezing
you know why :D

man i miss the club people ):
the randomness
funkyness
wackyness
hahh
my favourite people
the only ones who can make me high on air :D
pinky promise we'll go out everyday (almost) after O's
hee~

met robin and sammy for lunch today
like whoa
hahah robin was like making all sorts of racists jokes
causing me and sammy to laugh
thn he scolded us for being racists
wht an ass
hah
catched up cracked jokes and finally left ):
robin went to bowl
sammy went home
i went to zo's house
LOL saw pehhan but didnt manage to talk
cause he was giving zo's brother tuition
:O
hahah

daddy's back with dinner
and he got me th rubber thingy for my new ipod :DD
hahah thanks daddy

ohman
and today i like friggin humilated myself at parkway
cause i was like super sleepy, seriously half-dead
and i went to the apple retail shop to look for the screen protectors for my ipod

me : uhmm.. do you have the screen protractors
apple guy : huh ?
me : the screen protractors
apple guy : uhmm... do you mean screen protectors
me : *thinks hard* oh! ohya hor... crap... sorry
apple guy : *laughs damn hard* sorry the new stocks haven't come in yet...
me : orh okay thanks.. *runs out of the stores*

wth man
hahah classic
havent been blur for so long already
and my first chance of being blur was in front of a stranger
pure genius

shall go eat dinner now
rajiv's being nice by helping me get chem and physics notes
wahahahah

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 20:17

i suppose you could be right
after all i've proven you right over and over again
even when i said i won't
remember leon ?
hahah nuff said.

but i really wish you could meet him.
thn you wouldnt worry so.
he's a great guy
and even though i say tht about every other guy
hah
i think its different this time
honestly
but thn again i could be wrong
look at all my past relationships

you could be right about next year
whn he'd have his O's
thn i'll complain about how he isn't spending much time with me
and we'll end up breaking up
i dont know
not till it arrives
and you know me better thn anyone else
how fast i can have a change of heart
and i think he deserves way better thn this...

i dont know.
for now,
im just gonna take each day at a time
y'know, living it to the fullest
cause that's all i can do now.
ily much bro
thanks for worrying
like you always do(:
thanks for never judging me
like you never do
you know how much you mean to me

well... okay not much :DD

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 00:19

Saturday, 26 September 2009

love,

you knew how confused i was when i walked down that road
and i wished as hard as i could
that you'll never walk the same raod as me

life's fun that way.

unknowingly,
you've managed to choose the same road i chose
you've followed in my footsteps and perhaps further
as much as i love you,
i can only help you so far.

would you listen to me
if i told you what to do?
this road would get you no where
i know it better then anyone else

i love you girl
and i'll be here for you

but what im worried about now is
what happens then?
if you got lucky,
then what?
what next?
would you listen to what i have to say?
or would you turn a blind eye?

even if you got lucky
maybe you werent that lucky after all
there are many what-ifs to consider
and you must be strong to face them

im here for you always
as you have always been thr for me
i may not have given you much credit all th time
but i can clearly see
who's been there supporting me all this while

you'll make it through somehow
and if you can't,
im here to help

love you always sweetheart
so stay strong
nothing will happen, yeah ?

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 00:00

like whoa
hahah
how do ya like my new blog skinnnnnn ? :D
better say you like it or else....

okay shuddup robin.

hahah
O levels are like starting in a months' time
ohmyfreakingosh !
:O
i dont wanna take it D:
prelims were so-so
did well for some
didn't do too good for others

tell you something
that dumb lee dien has been checking up on me
that ASS
utter absolute ASS
checking up on me behind my back
D:
gosh
but he's really worried about me ):
and for some abnormal reason i feel freakin' guilty
ugh.
y'knw what he told me ??
'if i see you in TP... you better run like hell. you better get into SP or else you'll get it from me...'
talk about supportive much....
-.-

argh

have a new story up
markyoung
you wanted to know why i wanted a guy's name
well here's why

would you believe me if i said
he's the one?

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 00:00

Wednesday, 23 September 2009

tell you something amazingly hilarious
singers and bands that should have be popular since forever
are only getting populaar now
talk about slow much...

anyways prelims ended today
muahahah
im gonna flunk it
zainal said he thinks i screwed up my physics
cos the last Either or Or question
i did the Either one
and apparently its harder thn the Or -.-
screw him ):

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 18:07

Sunday, 13 September 2009

im gonna say something
which is seriously gonna cause my death
via shuxin throwing me off some high random building
cause she so freaking predicted it
and i even said it wont happen

im bored.
yes.
with that and those.
(;
im friggin serious
like i wanna go out met someone else serious
like find someone fun and exciting
and screw up again
serious

thn again
im already screwed up
thr's not much difference...

OKAY OKAY
i take that back

my oh my
i can see your faces now
stunned beyond belief
like it was only at like what ? ...
10+ maybe going on to 11 ?
when i said i met my ONE
ho, boy...
what's wrong with me ?
haven't got a clue either

maybe when they said
absence of the heart makes it grow fonder
they really knew what they were talking about

i knw he's perfect
you dont have to tell me
i knw
but perfection scares me
cause its like i feel dont deserve it
not much anyway
dont wanna drag anyone down with me
especially about now
when crap's starting to show

you know my story
my dirty little secret
or you wouldn't be here still
hell's about to begin
careful now, you dont want to fall in

no one deserves this
help, i say
but dont look or you be dragged into it
contradictory much ?

damn.

it's fear causing this.

too fast, too slow.
none just right.
let go, let live.
take a risk.
hide at home.
help, i'm drowning
drowning in confusion

sometimes i think
i got off too easy
i know there's something up ahead
just simply waiting
waiting till my guard's down
and it'll attack me
and i'll be worse thn screwed.
hahah

some people live for their future
im just lucky im alive each day.
cheers, love
i'll see you one day
in hell probably
but if im really lucky,
it's purgatory

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:44

Saturday, 12 September 2009

i want to hide in one corner and cry
cause i know i'll feel hell lot better afterwards

thanks much to grace
whose advice is always awesome
like forever
thanking the Lord everyday for the fateful day i met you

apologising here to you
my lovely friend
who told me the story
if i caused any trouble for you
im really sorryyyy
im not worried though
cause you very big
got gang :DD
hahah !
love you much(:

cursing robin's ass off
for being asleep:D
hee
i like saying that:DD
next time robin,
you're not allowed to sleep before 3am
muahahahha
and about S...
y'know who lahh
if you're really serious
then who am i to stand in your way
and i suppose you'll have my full support once more
but if she ... y'knw...
i'll swear to kill her ):
unfortunately and honestly

markyoung if you're reading my blog again
go play dota
like NOW
go on. shoo ;P
hahah
somehow
you guys have become really good friends
weirdly...
and thankyou guys for seriously helping me to cheer up
now go play dota dumb parrot :D

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:24

nobody ever said life's lessons were easy
they only said they might be sweet
too bad though
i had a bitter life's lesson today

then again
i had seen it coming
the only thing was
i didn't expect it to really happen

i have been trying really really hard to be rational
the whole damn day i have been fighting with myself
struggling to make sense of everything
giving stupid excuses for YOUR actions
when you dont deserve them at all

so shut the hell up
if you think im being really shitty right now
cause im sick and tired of being hurt by other people's actions
namely yours and a few others
but today i'm talking about yours
and i'm being REALLY irrational

wasn't the first time you did this
and i shouldn't have expected the first time to be the last
i take all the blame
for being naive and foolish

friendship is truly a fragile thing
like love
finding it isn't difficult
the ability to maintain it is the problem

friendship isn't judged by
the number of times you went out together
the number of secrets you share in between
or the number of clothes you guys keep exchanging

okay
maybe my view of friendship is different from yours
but then again, it's my blog
so whatever i say goes. HAH!

but let's get back to my story.

i judge friendship by alot of things
like how'd you'd help me when i need help
like when I'm in deep shit
and call you in the middle of the night
and just so happen you are awake
would you pick up my call and really listen
or would you just brush it off

and i should know
because i always happen to call people
between 1am to 3am
it's the time when I'm most vulnerable to my emotions
don't ask why

trust is another important factor
like how'd i can trust my dear sister robin and my big kid grace
because they really saved my ass more then once

and when the world decides to lie to me
will you tell me the truth
and help me change my ways?

then again
i could be foolish
naive
plain dumb
correction.
I AM

because i freaking saw it coming
i just didn't expect you to do such a thing
to me

and guess what?
cause you ha vent heard the best part yet
when i was screwed beyond hope of ever getting back on track
the very first fucking person i called was you

yes. you.
me. crying my ass out.
like i haven't got nothing to live for any longer.
me.
screwed so badly
i lost EVERYTHING
yeah everything.

to the newcomers of my blog,
i swear you've never seen me that way before
me crying? yeah, a little.
but when that f-ing b-tard broke up with me
i fell apart
and i never got back again.
maybe one day when i decide to trust you more
I'll tell you the whole story.
but not today.

and back to what i was saying before.

the first person i called was you
believing that somehow
you could make it right
trusting you

and i suppose you found it hilarious
wonderfully hilarious.
and it wasn't the first time
because if it were
i wouldn't be so fucking pissed
confused
and so damnably hurt
by someone so insignificant as you
well i sincerely hope you had a good laugh
honestly
or this pain wouldn't be worth all its trouble

I'm trying hard
to be what i should be
believing the positive side
but its really stupid to do so
especially when you've done it before

so honestly
i hope you're happy
or at least were happy
and don't bother feeling guilty
i haven't got a use for that.

i cant forgive you today
or tomorrow
or the in the months ahead
but maybe one day
I'll probably look back and think about things
and say, 'hell. who cares? live and let live.'
but unfortunately
that day isn't today.

When the bear was quite gone, the other Traveler descended from the tree, and humorously inquired of his friend what it was the Bear had whispered in his ear. "He gave me this advice," his companion replied. "Never travel with a friend who deserts you at the approach of danger."

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:27

Thursday, 10 September 2009

i have a sudden extremely weird random urge to do something stupid
really retarded what-the-hell-are-you-doing have-you-lost-your-mind dumbass stupid
why do i say its dumb ?
cos it involves me hurting myself
getting scoldings by a hell lot of people
losing everyones trust
ang hurting everyone again
now arent i just so sweet to you guys ?

oh shuddup
it wont be anything drastic

it'll probably be getting another piercing
like re-opening me belly piercing(which edward will reprimand me for)
or a tattoo (which everyone will just kill me for)
or probably make nice lovely patterns on my nice empty arm
thn everyone will just give up on me
hahah

i know
i wont
its the O's
im screwed
love y'all
very very much
dont bother yelling at me
or coming after my ass
cos i can already predict what you guys are gonna say
you guys refering to robin edward grace
the three people who are forever watching out for me
hahah
and whom i am forever disappointing
lovely way to pay you guys back ehh ? :D

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:04

be emo .
you'll feel happier .

:D
hee
okay random much .
but hell im just gonna ignore th complaints.
hah

im gonna screw up my prelims
and robin...
i think im gonna flunk my O's
:O
hahah
you'll see me in ITE man.
not saying it sucks
cos i knw some really awesome people from thr
who made it big
but saying im so totally screwed
i haven't got any hope in myself
hahah
i cant seem to really study hard
like i cant be bothered but i really should
gahhh
yeah
i shall go jump off some random building now
:P
hee

andandand
i miss my wife
edwarddddddd :D
he's super busyyyy now
with his rubbishy school crap :D
and im always busyyyy whenever he calls me up
screw bad timing

plusplusplus
i miss my sammyyyyyy :D
and her hyper crazyness
but we both got to study real hard for the dumb O's

soooooo
i should go sleep cos its 1.56am
hahah
and i know some certain people are super annoyed tht im still awake :P
and to add fuel to the fire
i've got school tomorrow
aint i awesome ?
i think so too(:

your smell.
it lingers even though you're long gone.

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:50

Wednesday, 2 September 2009

i suppose we could always
live each day
leaving nothing behind
but bits and pieces of us
remembered by people who would soon forget

or we could get up
and move
and leave behind a legacy
our legacy

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:15

Tuesday, 1 September 2009

bigggggg kiddddddd

you know he's probably happier up there
watching over you
wanting you to be happy too

so live your day like its your last
yesterday's gone
there's only today to fulfil
tomorrow hasnt come
so dont waste time worrying about it

everyone walks in and out of our lives
some barely scratch our surface
others leave prints and marks
so deep, we cant erase

you and i both know now
dying isnt the solution
though we might not know it
there are probably hundreds of people out there
somehow clinging to us
and unknowingly
we are giving them all the help and support they need

so dont be sad big kid
if you cant live for yourself
live so that others can survive
until the day comes when
you can finally live for yourself again(:

now i should really take my own advice
and go wash up and sleep
so that i can wake up
with a fresh start
and go back
slaving for my prelims

dumb poly students having holidays now
dumbass robin dien kaiyuan for rubbing it in
edward's nice
for now
until he starts rubbing it in too....
hee

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:29

sometimes i wish i didnt care so much
sometimes i wish i couldnt be bothered
sometimes things happen that make people re-think about what they're doing
love shouldnt be hurtful
love should be something amazing
but people play with it like its some kind of game
it makes the word love
just another word
when what it should really be is special..

prelims are cominggggggg

dieeeeeeeeee

so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:06