Nerissa Clarice Tan 13th May
Simply adores curious clothes , quirky songs and funny shows .
Oh , did I mention ? She love/hates her favourite people too
oxox
A rainbow in the sky
The sound of your laughter in my ears .
just another crush♥.
This blogger henceforth shall attempt to write unashamedly,
Take lots of pictures without embarrassment,
And speak in a language you can understand.Not.
"In 365 Days" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
It is the snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
omg like what the fuck ? D: argh forget you. i think its my turn to let go.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:53
conflicting words
SEOW SHUXIN YOU ARE AN ASS i know you will see this hahah you deserve it
careful later i ask people to do voodoo on you muahahahah :DD
anyways went out with edward chi after dunno how many monkey years yaye :D met him at plaza sing thn decided to go suntec th book fair shuxin [th dumb woman] and her boyf were thr too but didnt see her tan kaiyuan was thr to but didnt see him after edward found his books he decided to watch a movie and he was an ass about it too he know i no moneh but he die die want to watch and make me watch avatar with him but quite nice laa now i owe him 3 movie tickets -.- idiot. its his birthday today :DD happy birthday you cross-bred between a red-butt baboon and pig wife ! i hope he sees this cause he was making me feel so guilty about not being able to spend th day with him [sorry laaa] ass.
went to zainal's wedding hahah he was th blushing groom so cute anyway didnt spend much time thr just ate gave him his present and left hahah
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:28
today's tomorrow
Thursday, 17 December 2009
imma gonna chop off the rest off my hair into like tht :DD
yeah it'll be short like hell hahah [she's aria from th paradiso girls btw] i can think of a few people who'll be shocked like maybe smelly boy, and shuxin. and well everyone hahah and im doing it TODAY yaye ! but you guys won't see this till later anyway hahah so nobody can stop me :D byeeeee
ohohoh P.S. SEOW SHU XIN imma like so gonna kill you(: even though i love you you deserve to die and hmm.. oh wht happen at dance ? :O i think we need to meet up so that we can catch up and i can kill you argh.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 09:51
adrenaline's effect
Wednesday, 16 December 2009
let's see...
oh! i jumped off the eiffel tower hahah its the bits and pieces of the random phrases that are running through my head now
daddy left for milo in KL yesterday morning i said bye and gave him my Sticky sweets :P not milo drink dumb milo bowling competition only crazy whackos will go all the way to KL just to drink milo crazy whackos like... hmm... robin and shuxin :DD yeah im a genius :D
dien's over thr as well ): the sad face isn't cause i miss him its thr cos he owes me ice cream and new moon movie yes robin, go tell him tht :DD either ways goodluck to him hahah dad text just now saying dien got into MQ or whtevr means he got into th next round which isnt surprising i'd be surprise if he didnt he'll make it all the way to th semi-finals thn he'll be up against th koreans so it rly depands cos apparently th koreans kick butt hahah
meeting robin for dinner later or is it supper ? dont knw... hah
and i got a job interview before meeting him quick pray hard i get it :P
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 07:14
hinting at the sides
Sunday, 13 December 2009
lalala sammy's in hong kong now ): i shall go over and steal her fridge :D hahah aww robin's a dummy :DD *pokes him* ehh go arrange some sort of gathering lehhs i miss my wife and des and somehow edwin hah ! no i dont miss you to bad :D i wanna watch new moon ): *BIG BIG HINT*
SPACE COWBOY :D c'est une belle chanson down down down everybody falling down~
PARADISO GIRLS ~ robin ! arent they hot ? betcha they're hotter thn your SNSD :D
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:20
buzz went the bee
Saturday, 12 December 2009
I've been busy busy busy for this whole week with interviews and what-nots met up with grace after don't know how many donkey years hahah she's like so matured now her thinking i mean aww , no fun now she keeps spoiling my fun and i think she enjoys it too hahah she says im very rebellious toooo fyi im not i just refuse to listen :D now she's going to my tag board and ask me what's the difference :D hahah i think somethings can never change
i suppose in some ways i am matured , way over my years. i think two steps faster thn my peers and for that i have an edge over them. at the same time im still a kid not matter how much i look and sound like im older thn 16 the fact still remains i am 16 i still retain a little bit of that 16-year-old mentality and at 16 i feel like i've alrdy done it all and i knw it all even though rationality tells me otherwise you can understand, you were thr at 16 thr's no 'tomorrow' only now and yesterday the furthest 'future planning' we've made is probably 1-2 months ahead maybe a year, the longest i.e. planning wht we'll do during th dec hols in jan and im not including those geniuses im thankful for you to continually push me further thn th boundaries i've and society have set for me at 16 even though i dont sound grateful at all but still i have ample time to learn and make my mistakes and one day i'll see from your point of view but for now, with my 16-year-old brains i can't [maybe i wont, but let's just leave it at tht please ? :P] soooo yeah. that's what i wanted to say and oh P.S. TOLD YOU YOU WERE OLD :D
haven't seen baby in 12345678987654321 years :P okay , I'm exaggerating bet he doesn't care ):
meeting grace tmrw again at some kallang place sunday got meetings again not sure if i'll be in time for choir i don't think so though -.- :P
i think missing masses is finally starting to affect me -.- ugh. not again
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:24
heart stopper
Friday, 11 December 2009
y'know being with him is like falling in love again and again everday hahah you cant get tired with that and he's not like tht other guys where they pretend to be something they're not and make you believe that they are worth it and once you're theirs they forget everything its like they raise your hopes high up and then knock you down and you fall on glass shards so maybe that's why i can still smile and laugh for no reason
Je suis sérieux quand je dis je t'aime et je pense que vous le savez aussi
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:02
Thursday, 10 December 2009
one of the most hilarious and cutest Capella group i've ever seen :DD
they are like AWESOME hahah
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 17:44
Tuesday, 8 December 2009
i miss a certain smelly boy but i bet he doesnt care hahah aww.
ineedajob ineedajob ineedajob
i need a job urgh
i need dollars and cents too quick, pray hard tht i can get that job
D:
on the other hand im like so friggin' in love with mark's and chelsie's choreo from the So You Think You Can Dance show its like zomg awesomeee ! :P seeseesee !
i told you sooooooooooooo ! hahah
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:21
Monday, 7 December 2009
i suddenly feel that singapore is tiny and miniscule so much so that i wished i signed up for the cambodia trip awahhh ): i want to get out of here ):
wanderlust
im like suddenly struck with a serious case of annoyance and depression help hah
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:20
because i love christmas
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
a little story of why christmas is so much fun it shows the true meaning and spirit of christmas i think many of us have heard it before but have long forgotten because of life's commitments also, its a really cheery and lovely way to start of the christmas season as we run around doing our christmas shopping and demanding not to be forgotten in our friends' christmas shopping lists perhaps we should also remember why we are celebrating the day the following story is written by Aaron Shepard it is based on a true story and the time period is set in the WWI era enjoy(: i have included the history of the story at the end incase you're curious(:
The Christmas Truce
Christmas Day, 1914
My dear sister Janet,
It is 2:00 in the morning and most of our men are asleep in their dugouts—yet I could not sleep myself before writing to you of the wonderful events of Christmas Eve. In truth, what happened seems almost like a fairy tale, and if I hadn’t been through it myself, I would scarce believe it. Just imagine: While you and the family sang carols before the fire there in London, I did the same with enemy soldiers here on the battlefields of France!
As I wrote before, there has been little serious fighting of late. The first battles of the war left so many dead that both sides have held back until replacements could come from home. So we have mostly stayed in our trenches and waited.
But what a terrible waiting it has been! Knowing that any moment an artillery shell might land and explode beside us in the trench, killing or maiming several men. And in daylight not daring to lift our heads above ground, for fear of a sniper’s bullet.
And the rain—it has fallen almost daily. Of course, it collects right in our trenches, where we must bail it out with pots and pans. And with the rain has come mud—a good foot or more deep. It splatters and cakes everything, and constantly sucks at our boots. One new recruit got his feet stuck in it, and then his hands too when he tried to get out—just like in that American story of the tar baby!
Through all this, we couldn’t help feeling curious about the German soldiers across the way. After all, they faced the same dangers we did, and slogged about in the same muck. What’s more, their first trench was only 50 yards from ours. Between us lay No Man’s Land, bordered on both sides by barbed wire—yet they were close enough we sometimes heard their voices.
Of course, we hated them when they killed our friends. But other times, we joked about them and almost felt we had something in common. And now it seems they felt the same.
Just yesterday morning—Christmas Eve Day—we had our first good freeze. Cold as we were, we welcomed it, because at least the mud froze solid. Everything was tinged white with frost, while a bright sun shone over all. Perfect Christmas weather.
During the day, there was little shelling or rifle fire from either side. And as darkness fell on our Christmas Eve, the shooting stopped entirely. Our first complete silence in months! We hoped it might promise a peaceful holiday, but we didn’t count on it. We’d been told the Germans might attack and try to catch us off guard.
I went to the dugout to rest, and lying on my cot, I must have drifted asleep. All at once my friend John was shaking me awake, saying, “Come and see! See what the Germans are doing!” I grabbed my rifle, stumbled out into the trench, and stuck my head cautiously above the sandbags.
I never hope to see a stranger and more lovely sight. Clusters of tiny lights were shining all along the German line, left and right as far as the eye could see.
“What is it?” I asked in bewilderment, and John answered, “Christmas trees!”
And so it was. The Germans had placed Christmas trees in front of their trenches, lit by candle or lantern like beacons of good will.
And then we heard their voices raised in song.
Stille nacht, heilige nacht . . . .
This carol may not yet be familiar to us in Britain, but John knew it and translated: “Silent night, holy night.” I’ve never heard one lovelier—or more meaningful, in that quiet, clear night, its dark softened by a first-quarter moon.
When the song finished, the men in our trenches applauded. Yes, British soldiers applauding Germans! Then one of our own men started singing, and we all joined in.
The first Nowell, the angel did say . . . .
In truth, we sounded not nearly as good as the Germans, with their fine harmonies. But they responded with enthusiastic applause of their own and then began another.
O Tannenbaum, o Tannenbaum . . . .
Then we replied.
O come all ye faithful . . . .
But this time they joined in, singing the same words in Latin.
Adeste fideles . . . .
British and German harmonizing across No Man’s Land! I would have thought nothing could be more amazing—but what came next was more so.
“English, come over!” we heard one of them shout. “You no shoot, we no shoot.”
There in the trenches, we looked at each other in bewilderment. Then one of us shouted jokingly, “You come over here.”
To our astonishment, we saw two figures rise from the trench, climb over their barbed wire, and advance unprotected across No Man’s Land. One of them called, “Send officer to talk.”
I saw one of our men lift his rifle to the ready, and no doubt others did the same—but our captain called out, “Hold your fire.” Then he climbed out and went to meet the Germans halfway. We heard them talking, and a few minutes later, the captain came back with a German cigar in his mouth!
“We’ve agreed there will be no shooting before midnight tomorrow,” he announced. “But sentries are to remain on duty, and the rest of you, stay alert.”
Across the way, we could make out groups of two or three men starting out of trenches and coming toward us. Then some of us were climbing out too, and in minutes more, there we were in No Man’s Land, over a hundred soldiers and officers of each side, shaking hands with men we’d been trying to kill just hours earlier!
Before long a bonfire was built, and around it we mingled—British khaki and German grey. I must say, the Germans were the better dressed, with fresh uniforms for the holiday.
Only a couple of our men knew German, but more of the Germans knew English. I asked one of them why that was.
“Because many have worked in England!” he said. “Before all this, I was a waiter at the Hotel Cecil. Perhaps I waited on your table!”
“Perhaps you did!” I said, laughing.
He told me he had a girlfriend in London and that the war had interrupted their plans for marriage. I told him, “Don’t worry. We’ll have you beat by Easter, then you can come back and marry the girl.”
He laughed at that. Then he asked if I’d send her a postcard he’d give me later, and I promised I would.
Another German had been a porter at Victoria Station. He showed me a picture of his family back in Munich. His eldest sister was so lovely, I said I should like to meet her someday. He beamed and said he would like that very much and gave me his family’s address.
Even those who could not converse could still exchange gifts—our cigarettes for their cigars, our tea for their coffee, our corned beef for their sausage. Badges and buttons from uniforms changed owners, and one of our lads walked off with the infamous spiked helmet! I myself traded a jackknife for a leather equipment belt—a fine souvenir to show when I get home.
Newspapers too changed hands, and the Germans howled with laughter at ours. They assured us that France was finished and Russia nearly beaten too. We told them that was nonsense, and one of them said, “Well, you believe your newspapers and we’ll believe ours.”
Clearly they are lied to—yet after meeting these men, I wonder how truthful our own newspapers have been. These are not the “savage barbarians” we’ve read so much about. They are men with homes and families, hopes and fears, principles and, yes, love of country. In other words, men like ourselves. Why are we led to believe otherwise?
As it grew late, a few more songs were traded around the fire, and then all joined in for—I am not lying to you—“Auld Lang Syne.” Then we parted with promises to meet again tomorrow, and even some talk of a football match.
I was just starting back to the trenches when an older German clutched my arm. “My God,” he said, “why cannot we have peace and all go home?”
I told him gently, “That you must ask your emperor.”
He looked at me then, searchingly. “Perhaps, my friend. But also we must ask our hearts.”
And so, dear sister, tell me, has there ever been such a Christmas Eve in all history? And what does it all mean, this impossible befriending of enemies?
For the fighting here, of course, it means regrettably little. Decent fellows those soldiers may be, but they follow orders and we do the same. Besides, we are here to stop their army and send it home, and never could we shirk that duty.
Still, one cannot help imagine what would happen if the spirit shown here were caught by the nations of the world. Of course, disputes must always arise. But what if our leaders were to offer well wishes in place of warnings? Songs in place of slurs? Presents in place of reprisals? Would not all war end at once?
All nations say they want peace. Yet on this Christmas morning, I wonder if we want it quite enough.
Your loving brother, Tom
About the Story
The Christmas Truce of 1914 has been called by Arthur Conan Doyle “one human episode amid all the atrocities.” It is certainly one of the most remarkable incidents of World War I and perhaps of all military history. Inspiring both popular songs and theater, it has endured as an almost archetypal image of peace.
Starting in some places on Christmas Eve and in others on Christmas Day, the truce covered as much as two-thirds of the British-German front, with French and Belgians involved as well. Thousands of soldiers took part. In most places it lasted at least through Boxing Day (December 26), and in some through mid-January. Perhaps most remarkably, it grew out of no single initiative but sprang up in each place spontaneously and independently.
Unofficial and spotty as the truce was, there have been those convinced it never happened—that the whole thing was made up. Others have believed it happened but that the news was suppressed. Neither is true. Though little was printed in Germany, the truce made headlines for weeks in British newspapers, with published letters and photos from soldiers at the front. In a single issue, the latest rumor of German atrocities might share space with a photo of British and German soldiers crowded together, their caps and helmets exchanged, smiling for the camera.
Historians, on the other hand, have shown less interest in an unofficial outbreak of peace. There has been only one comprehensive study of the incident: Christmas Truce, by Malcolm Brown and Shirley Seaton, Secker & Warburg, London, 1984—a companion volume to the authors’ 1981 BBC documentary, Peace in No Man’s Land. The book features a large number of first-hand accounts from letters and diaries. Nearly everything described in my fictional letter is drawn from these accounts—though I have heightened the drama somewhat by selecting, arranging, and compressing.
In my letter, I’ve tried to counteract two popular misconceptions of the truce. One is that only common soldiers took part in it, while officers opposed it. (Few officers opposed it, and many took part.) The other is that neither side wished to return to fighting. (Most soldiers, especially British, French, and Belgian, remained determined to fight and win.)
Sadly, I also had to omit the Christmas Day games of football—or soccer, as called in the U.S.—often falsely associated with the truce. The truth is that the terrain of No Man’s Land ruled out formal games—though certainly some soldiers kicked around balls and makeshift substitutes.
Another false idea about the truce was held even by most soldiers who were there: that it was unique in history. Though the Christmas Truce is the greatest example of its kind, informal truces had been a longstanding military tradition. During the American Civil War, for instance, Rebels and Yankees traded tobacco, coffee, and newspapers, fished peacefully on opposite sides of a stream, and even gathered blackberries together. Some degree of fellow feeling had always been common among soldiers sent to battle.
Of course, all that has changed in modern times. Today, soldiers kill at great distances, often with the push of a button and a sighting on a computer screen. Even where soldiers come face to face, their languages and cultures are often so diverse as to make friendly communication unlikely.
No, we should not expect to see another Christmas Truce. Yet still what happened on that Christmas of 1914 may inspire the peacemakers of today—for, now as always, the best time to make peace is long before the armies go to war.