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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Doth with their death bury their parents’ strife
Thursday, 29 July 2010
and the pair of star-crossed lovers
take back their lifeMercutio refused to blame fate
for his death
he refused to allow his death to be another
inevitability
he knew why he was killed
and on his dying breath
he cursed the two names that cause his premature death
unlike two lovers that i know...
but as fickle-minded as i think they are
is his love real as pure as it seems ?
is it a matured love that honestly
he'd die without her ?
i mean putting the whole storyline aside
and pretending he survived the whole ordeal
do you think he would have met someone new
and moved on ?
and what about her?
do you think that if she had been "prudent" enough
and not kill herself
would she have married Paris and lived well enough ?
but the one thing i like about the whole play
is that Shakespeare managed to raise a bloody good question
how many deaths before one will learn to let go
and forgive ?
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 00:21
only you
Saturday, 24 July 2010
"Do you realize that we are falling for each other
more and more each day?"you said that to me over dinner
with cheap ginseng chicken soup (probably fake)
and the noise loud and overbearing
i wonder what was going on in your head when you said it
was it like all our other conversations
sudden, spontaneous
and beginning with insecurities?
or was it something you needed to know?
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:25
us blue blooded creatures
Tuesday, 20 July 2010
because, i, the queen, commanded it soyou can buy all those branded goods
high-end shoes
and high-street clothes
but you can't tell the difference
between high-end and high-street
because to you its all the same
we nod and smile at you
because we have too much of a good breeding
to embarrass you
but you
foolishly continue
embarassing yourself in the process
but you can't ever carry it off
you are more suited to dressing in your
skimpy clothes and cheap perfume
because elegance and class isn't something you can buy
you can practice all day long
but you will never have it
not the way we do
because you, my dear
are a commoner
and we,
we are blue blooded people
we can be dressed in the same clothes you are
and still be classier then you
but you can dress in all of them expensive baubles
but never be as elegant as us
so my dear
stop trying
and accept it
ours is a club you can't buy your way in
no matter how much money you have
at the end
it's where your family's from
what kind of breeding you have
and above all
who your ancestors are
that will allow you
to enter our exclusive little club
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 22:10
puzzel pieces falling in place
Saturday, 17 July 2010
this is our world
where only you and i existi'd live in a crystal ball
carefree and alive
and yet chained down by the glass walls surrounding me
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:33
so goodbye to yesterday
Tuesday, 13 July 2010
i fell for that guy who pisses me off all the timewhen im with you
it feels like a dream
it ends too quickly
“Don’t overwork yourself,” so you said, wrapped your arms around me, and laughed
“Is it okay for me to cry just a little?” My tears were filled with emotion
Timidness, bluffing, and the things that I protected obstruct me
And I can’t even take a single step forward; tomorrow is scary
It’s warm in your arms; I wonder if I can say it
I’ll change weakness into wings now
“Good bye, yesterday”
It’s not because I was lonely; my heart was simply shut in on itself
But the one who opened the door at the end was this me
It’s painful in your arms; I wonder if I can say it
I’ll change weakness into wings now
“Good bye, yesterday”
“Good bye, yesterday”
I’ll go recover
The courage that I’d started to forget
For the sake of meeting the new me
Who is waiting on the other side of the door
It’s warm in your arms; I wonder if I can say it
Because I’ll laugh and wave my hand now
“Good bye, yesterday”
Now I’ll gather this wind in my hands and yell
I’ll change weakness into wings now
“Good bye, yesterday”
“Good bye, yesterday”
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 20:48
love me tender
Sunday, 11 July 2010
you never really told me you loved me
but your every move and every look told me you'd die without menow you should really take responsiblity
after all it is your fault
i absoultely refuse to take the blame
because it wasn't me that wanted to fall in love with you
you made it so
and you made me fall so hard
that now
life without you seem to be meaningless
so im asking of you now
to take responsibilty of your mistakes
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:45
with candy-coated hugs adnd kisses
Monday, 5 July 2010
that's your heart
with my broken one over iti sincerely hope that
all's well
end's well
ily girl
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:56
mirror mirror, i wish i didn't look like that
my biggest fear?
is to become the exact person you areself-destruction.
gone are them happy days.
all of it now seems so superficial
i suppose i need to stop lying
and wake up
what's bad for me
doesn't necessarily seem to be bad
and what's good for me
doesn't necessarily seem to be good
im a mess now
all back to square one
disgusting little square one
im glad to have someone on my side though
even though im doing everything wrong
they tell me its alright
because they believe i can make things right again
and it's really comforting to have such people
because it makes me believe in myself
believe in my dreams
and finally fight for them
even though i am such a screw-up
they don't seem to think so
and it makes me glad
and makes me want to live again
such a simple thing
to believe in someone
and to tell them that everyting's gonna be alright
so insignificant
and yet so substantial
i think i need some time now
i think its time to leave
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:22