mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
scream for me
Wednesday, 10 November 2010
and you catch my eyeyes he does
OMG
hahah
he is so damn cute
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 03:57
it's been a long time coming
Tuesday, 2 November 2010
If God can accomplish His purpose in this world through a broken heart, then why not thank Him for breaking yours?it's been a long time
since i spoke to Him
since i sought His warmth
He was always there
but i always strayed
yeah
shake your heads
here's the thing.
i can't give a damn
you're too judgmental
it's unsurprising people are turning away instead
but i'm going off topic again
i look around me
and i see myself
being surrounded by so many strong people
i remember crashing and burning
closing off
and running away
sometimes things are harder to deal with then they really seem
i keep reminding myself
how i should give thanks and praise Him everyday
i really tried
but sometimes you get so caught up
you forget that He has bigger plans for us
i need a daily reminder of some sort
He has bigger plans for us alla fellow Christian once told me
"God doesn't solve everything"
i didn't say anything
respect i suppose (surprise i have any left for anyone)
but i remember thinking
"I'm just bloody glad I'm still alive"
i could have died
gone missing
probably never met any of the people i love now
but i was still alive
it's hard
struggling everyday
and just when you think everything's alright now
"BAM" something else hits you again
and you'll find yourself asking "Why"
"Is there no justice?"
"I have tried to do everything to please you"
"Why me? Why AGAIN?"
then you realise
one day
no warning, no clue
years later, after leaving Him, and not turning back
It was done to strengthen you for the trials aheadtruly, if we did not wallow in our self-pity
we would have gotten up again
and we would have fought
harder
for our lives
to fulfill His purpose
to finish His bigger plan
He would not have left us there
as we struggled to move
crawling and dragging our bodies along
getting bloodied along the way
He would have crawled alongside us
whatever injuries we sustain
He receives thousand times over
i feel foolish now
for questioning Him
for leaving Him again
and it wasn't as though He didn't stop me
little signs and signals He gave out
i chose to ignore
and when He could not reach me
He kept running after me
until He caught me all over again
and i find myself breaking down in front of Him
apologizing, promising empty promises
and yet He believes them
maybe it's time to stop fighting Him
calling ye faith-followers :
Ryebread
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:04