mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
you're my mood-maker
Wednesday, 30 March 2011
"I can fix that."
that's what you said
when i couldn'tand you did.
even when you couldn't
you kept trying.
but what happens when you get tired
of fixing things?
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 03:12
dicks , cunts and fucking fuck-ups
Monday, 28 March 2011
i'm tired and you're plain bitchywhat's next ?
don't tell me that's all you've got
i know you better then that
who else do you like to screw ?
tell me straight in my face
don't be such a piss ass coward
ohwait
you are .
well now , that settles things doesn't it ?
wake up bitch , the world doesn't revolve around you
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 14:25
remembering , that's what we do best .
Monday, 21 March 2011
to sleep on brushwood every night
and taste bitter gall before every meali'll remember
every word said
every insult given
i'll remember
every whip on my back
every scar left
i'll remember
even if you forget
even if you don't remember
i do
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 03:23
hypocrites
Friday, 18 March 2011
you sing praises of God
and follow every Commandment to the 'T'
and yet you turn around and curse others
with the same mouth that had just praised HimLet the one among youwho is WITHOUT sinthrow the first stone at her.who are we to judge
who are we to say what's right and what's not
we may be the poorest of beggars
or the richest of men
we may be the greatest sinners
or the holiest man
but we are not God
and we do not have a right to judge
we are still human
priest or no priest
sinner or no sinner
we make mistakes
i will not say
i have not do anything
that does not please God
because i have
knowingly , unknowingly
i have
yet
it is not judgment i have here today
it is disappointment
pity
hurt
but i will not let myself fall to that level
i see the mistakes made
i will attempt not to follow
narrow the gate and constricted the road that leads to life
and those who find it are few.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 03:32
on full display , and yet invisible to all .
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
it's like the bitter taste of poison
and a knife twisting in my heartit's irrational
senseless
ridiculous
you can try not to think of it
but it doesn't stop haunting you
changing you , affecting you
and me ?
i just want to run away
start over
hide under my blankets pretending it's not real
so that the stabbing pain in my chest would stop
but reality's not that nice
it likes to taunt you like that
till you can't take it
till you break
and yet
we can't stop wanting it
that sweet sweet poison we call
love
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:43
the water's gone cold now
Monday, 14 March 2011
i am speaking
but you're not really listeningbecause we all feel like
this sometimes.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 00:48
because i can't say it out loud
Saturday, 12 March 2011
i fear for my heart
because i do not know
how many times
i can glue the fragments back together over and over againbecause you say those three words
far too easily
because i don't like getting
my heart shattered
because i rather everyone else get hurt
than me
because i can't survive much
if you leave
but it'll be justified
if you did
because i'll just be getting my
just desserts
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:12
Friday, 11 March 2011
can you cover your ears
and listen ?
can you close your eyes
and see ?because i daren't speak my mind
words fail me
as i think about what
i need to tell you
you who always found
the courage to tell me things
whereas my courage
tend to dissipate when it comes to vital things
so i need you
to close your eyes and see
the things i need to show you
i need you
to cover your ears and hear
the important things i need to sayme demander, pourquoi j'ai pleuré
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:11
breakfast at tiffany's
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
i'll follow you to wonderland
and backwe talk
and that's important
more important than everything else
because once we stop talking
we drift away
and we don't want that now , do we?
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 23:24