mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
lose your way
Tuesday, 30 August 2011
i lost my way
and i'm struggling to find my way back
where i follow the path I have carved
not you
when you've found God
it's impossible for you
to lose faith in Him
because when you've found Him
He'll keep helping you out
when you desperately need help
instead
its His people you lose faith in
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 00:50
not your business
Friday, 26 August 2011
it scares me
when He sends help
when i least expect Him too
someone told me
"I don't think you did anything wrong"
someone helped me hold on
just when i was about to give up
someone whom
i'd least expect it from
someone whom
i never thought would understand
it's funny how
You always appear
when i'm desperate
and barely hanging on
i never said
i was right
but they never said
they were wrong either
and You showing up
makes me hope
that maybe there's
a possible future for him and i
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 03:14
chains and whips
Thursday, 25 August 2011
when i look at my reflections
sometimes, i barely recognise the person
staring right back at me
i mean no disrespect
when i say
you can't match up to us
because you can't
and trash
will always be
trash
no matter how much you dress yourself up
I remember writing you a hundred love letters after you went away. They asked why you had to go and if you missed me like I missed you.
-
The Whisperings of a Broken Angel
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 02:28
in your heart
Saturday, 20 August 2011
our home won't be grand
it'll be messy
and safe
weekends will be spent
lazing around
before we pick ourselves up
and put ourselves back
into bed
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 16:52
lack of (insert feelings)
Wednesday, 10 August 2011
for my best interest
you put me in misery
children need to make
as many mistakes they can
so that when they need to fly
they will soar
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 13:25
i still remember / and i'll never forget
Monday, 8 August 2011
i have no clue where i'm headed now
there are too many things blocking my way
that i can't see the road anymore4 years passed
and we've all (almost) moved on
long forgotten about you
but i'm still dedicating
a post each year
for you
regret still burns me
everytime i think of you
all those "what-ifs" kill me inside bit by bit
i'm in poly now
finally
even though i said i wanted to go to JC
things change
plans change
and before i knew it, i changed
can you see what's going to happen
to me
from where you are?
could you tell me
what's going to happen?
cause i'm barely hanging on again
why is it
everytime this date comes around
i'm always barely hanging on?
will there ever be a year
where i'll say
i'm having fun, for once?
i'm losing everyone again
just cause of one decision i made
they're leaving me in disgust (finally i suppose)
it hurts
losing your best friends
because they can't understand
it hurts
leaving my past behind
just because i want to move forward
it hurts
killing who i am
to be who what they want me to be
you'd understand that
won't you?
cause you were the same
i'll lit a candle
for you again
trying to say how sorry i am
i hope you can hear me
and forgive me
and thanks for listening in again.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 01:26