mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Panic Attack
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Fear \feer\ adj
a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc.,
whether the threat is real or imaginedMy heart starts to pounds.
My chest hurts.
I feel dizzy and nauseous.
I feel as though I'm being asphyxiated.
When the fear doesn't stop,
I start shaking,
I barely contain my thoughts,
And nightmares terrorize me throughout the night.
I desperately want to escape to some place safe.
It is so tormenting ,
That I no longer fear death.
I embrace it and wish for it to hasten its speed to me.
Today,
I discovered it may not have been an asthma attack.
But a panic attack instead.
Made me think which was worse -
Dying from fear or dying from being suffocated?
Picture courtesy of Royston
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 05:32