mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Nobody Likes You
Monday, 10 December 2012
There's the harsh truth, right there.
There isn't anyone in this world who can accept someone else for who they are.
If you do find that one person who can accept you (your temper, your moodiness, your fat thighs etc)
Kudos to you.
But, generally, in this lovely world we live in,
we secretly hate each other.
We hate that someone's not cool enough, not smart enough, or cooler than us, or smarter than us.
But we don't hate them enough to do drastic things like spreading rumours about them or glaring at them and wishing they would drop dead.
We just tolerate most people.
And we know most people tolerate us.
So, we hide our true selves away, in tiny cupboards and dark, cramped spaces,
Where we only take them out occasionally to view.
Very few can actually wear their true selves out in the open.
I mean, really.
Would you treat your friends how you treat your family when you're in a bad mood?
Maybe you like to throw things, or scream at them, or say cutting, hurtful things to them.
Would you do that to your friends when you're in a bad mood?
Or you know you'd lose them?
Even family members sometimes just tolerate each other.
I mean if they really accepted you flaws and all, (notwithstanding if you did something wrong like murdering someone...) they wouldn't be nagging at you to clean up your room, or expect you to pass your exams.
Wouldn't they just accept the fact that, hey, you're not good in Maths or Science, so maybe you're good at Humanities, or Business, or Events Management?
See?
Families sometimes can't accept your true self either.
So don't be fooling yourself.
Although, I must add there are always exceptions, before you take my head off and say "My family doesn't do that! We support each other!"
If I were a few years younger and a little bit more naive, then maybe I'd say
"Be true to yourself!"
But I'm not.
I'm cynical and sarcastic and above all, afraid.
And we all know how fear makes us do stupid, irrational things that hurt everyone else, just to protect ourselves.
So, I hide myself in a tiny, cramped dark place again.
Where I won't be hurt again.
Because, so far so, I have yet to see someone's irrational, crazy love.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 18:32