mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
Painful thing called Love
Monday, 7 January 2013
As I look at pictures and read your notes, I am painfully reminded of happier times.
Sometimes, I wished I wasn't so foolish and stop putting myself up for more pain.
Sometimes, I wished I could turn back the time and fix things.
Go back and tell myself that there's nothing to fear right now, but if I carried on this way, there would be.
Wounds heal, but scars remain and all of us have them.
These scars are like medals, showing how much we've grown.
But at times, they also stop us from reaching out.
And for you, those scars make you hide away.
Your fear, hurts me and kills me inside.
I wonder if I'm a fool to hold on and wait.
I don't know where this road would go and it scares me to death.
So much uncertainties, I'm afraid to take that jump.
What if there's nothing there to catch me if I fall?
I want to hide away and disappear.
I feel myself slipping away again, and this time no one's to blame but myself.
No amount of apologies would make you see.
Nothing I do will prove to you anything anymore.
And I'm a fool for allowing you to come in.
I was a fool for believing in you and trusting you.
I don't know where to go from here.
I'm terrified but all I can do is wait.
And that's what's killing me everyday.
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 19:00