mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
In My Heart
Tuesday, 18 June 2013
Lately, I've been having way too many proper grown-up talks with people.
It gets me thinking, sometimes in a good way, sometimes not so good.
I talked to WM and M about people having secret lives. It's quite intimidating. But it was also manageable so I wasn't too drained over it.
I talked to B, Igg and WL about army life and their crushes. It was new, interesting and funny. It's sweet to see them worrying and whining about their crushes.
I hate talking to E. Because as always, he makes me think the most. It's annoying and troublesome. I hate thinking. I hate drama.
For once, he looked me in the eye and told me, "Stop running away. If you have something you want, go for it." Or something along those lines. It freaked me out, because I never get caught for running away. People don't notice me running away and avoiding problems. They think I jump right in and fix things. I thought I did too. Until he had to bring it up.
If you are reading this, I hate you.
I miss talking to J the most because I don't have to think. HAHAH
Not that I can't sprout bullshit with the rest, but.. well... y'all know what I mean.
(OH SHUT UP!)
Lately I've been wondering, if I had made different decisions, chose different choices, would I still be the person I am today?
Or would I be somebody else?
Would I still know the things I know today?
Or would I know other unrelated things?
And even as I'm wondering about these things, I'm terrified of knowing what the answer would be.
Silly me, worrying over the forgotten monsters in the closets.
I'm just digging my own grave.
Labels: In 365 Days, Reflection
so we said; thee, thee, hear. 12:41