mystery♥.
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dream like dreamers do♥.
in my ears .
just another crush♥.
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And speak in a language you can understand.
" is a photodiary I've decided to initiate, compiling day to day events with a snapshot of a moment of the day.
snapshot of a minute in my life, that caught my eye, with a caption of sorts, either explaining the picture or describing my emotions.
I have been told that I never really open up myself to others, and more often than not, I leave people wondering what I truly feel or giving them confusing signals.
Thus, this photodiary, is in a sense, a window to my head.
All my thoughts, my emotions, everything I usually keep out-of-sight, will be put under here, other then my regular blog posts, which are usually not very informative.
Welcome, to the chaos and mess in my head.
I hope you'd find something that speaks to you, whether to pull you through something difficult, or to relate to.
The Words I Never Said
Monday, 5 August 2013
There are always a thousand and one things that I see, hear or simply notice that I wish I could share with you. But you're no longer here with me to share. Or rather, I no longer dare to share. Long gone are the days when we could talk to each other with an envious ease. But it's okay.
Everything happens for a reason. Some make us laugh, some make us cry. Some make us so furious, we feel like throwing a hissy fit in public. But after all our emotions die out and our mind takes over, we realize that we're going to be just fine. We can keep walking and laughing. We can keep living.
We were made to be stronger than we actually give ourselves credit for. Life is a really funny thing. We take one step and it pushes us two steps back. Some of us give up, some try again. Some of us choose a different path to walk instead. But it's okay. What matters most is we get to where we want to be at the end. What may have seemed like a wrong choice during our most difficult times, may sometimes turn out to bring us to the right places at the end. We are all a little broken, a little bruised, a little scarred. But it's alright. We were never meant to be perfect anyway. Perfection is a thing only meant for God.
One thing I need to keep in mind is that my background and circumstances may have influenced the person I am today. But where I go from here and the person I eventually become, depends on the choices I choose to make. I cannot blame anyone else if I fall and refuse to stand up. I, alone, am responsible for who I will become. I need to take it seriously and make my decisions wisely from here on.
I am afraid of what the future holds for me. There are also times where I look back and wonder if I had done things differently, would I be another person entirely? But my eyes are made in front for me to look forward and keep walking on.
I want to be a person that people hate because I am all the things they were afraid to do. And that person I will be. I only hope that I do not get hurt by the world out there too much that I decide to runaway again. I will face my fears head-on and just go. Because that is the person I am, reckless, headstrong, incredibly and infuriatingly stubborn. But I also am loyal, giving and crazily loving, even to people who sometimes don't deserve it. So I guess I evened out! Hahah
I wish things were different. But there is nothing left for me to do. Yes, my heart aches, but ah well, I've learnt that love is like this. Real love doesn't asks, but it simply gives. I don't do it right all the time, but I'm trying my best.
Beside, I've got crazy people in my life who bring me much joy and laughter everyday. Each dawn, there's something new to laugh at, to feel sad about, to learn from. Each new day seems like a crazy, roller-coaster adventure. And right now, I'm ready to take it on.
If thou remember'st not the slightest folly
That ever love did make thee run into,
Thou hast not loved.
- As You Like It, Shakespeare
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