people i need inspiration gosh to write a story that inspires people wth ?! hahah gahhh
i hope i feel better tomorrow thn i can go get my chocolatesssssssssssss :DD heeheehee gahh
missed school for two days cause of a baaaaaaaaaaaad headache im getting chocolates and get-well cards :DD muahahah !
i can imagine how fast im gonna die once i go back school imagine th amount of homework D:
hahah !
.Thursday, 16 July 2009 ' 22:35 Y
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a little late but yeah. 11 july, saturday came and went gahh.
It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen All dressed in white Going to the church that night She had his box of letters in the passenger seat Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue And when the church doors opened up wide She put her veil down Trying to hide the tears Oh she just couldn't believe it She heard trumpets from the military band And the flowers fell out of her hand
Baby why'd you leave me Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know I can't even breathe It's like I'm looking from a distance Standing in the background Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now This can't be happening to me This is just a dream
The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard Then they handed her a folded up flag And she held on to all she had left of him Oh, and what could have been And then the guns rang one last shot And it felt like a bullet in her heart
Baby why'd you leave me Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know I can't even breathe It's like I'm looking from a distance Standing in the background Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now This can't be happening to me This is just a dream
Oh, Baby why'd you leave me Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know Oh, now I'll never know It's like I'm looking from a distance Standing in the background Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now This can't be happening to me This is just a dream
Oh, this is just a dream Just a dream Yeah, Yeah
gosh it's been two years already . i wish i could take back every bad thing that i've said. at the same time, i learnt to live like it's gonna be my last day everyday. it still hurts. i'm still guilty as hell, for the things i could've done, but didn't do. i really wish i could say sorry face-to-face. but that's not really possible isn't it ? thn again, its things like these that make me feel like, there's nothing much left to live for. so i could pretty much get bang down by a car tomorrow and honestly not be bothered about it im not afraid of dying not anymore. im leaving it all to Him. if He wants me home, i'll go. im missing you like hell stuck here wishing you didn't have to go
.Friday, 10 July 2009 ' 20:35 Y
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1 day left D:
die died died-ed D: gahhh.
ohohoh tell you something sweet :DD
"you call me for?"
"dont know. suddenly miss you then call lorhh."
now everybody say awww :DD hahah ! right shuddup you
anyways dear girl not everything's about you all the time wake up and stop wallowing in self-pity
today was retarded D: so many people getting into trouble everywhere tht retarded dumbass freak markyg pointed th middle finger at me for no reason wht an ass. bleahhs
tomorrow is a loooooooooooooong day D: hope it wont rain and tht it wont be super hot but just nice abit demanding but i think i deserve it lorhhs heheh alright shall go buy dinner for daddy now.
.Tuesday, 7 July 2009 ' 21:18 Y
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4 days
im dead like damn freakin' dead D: =/
*panic mood*
gosh. *warning* this post will be absolutely random. sooooooo i screwed MT O level oral i screwed my homework i wanna drop dead ): hahah !
freak day today actually everyday sucks thanks to structured hahah gossiped about someone today :O thn speak of th devil he appears hahah ! yeah im going burn in hell anyway so afew more wont make much difference ugh. contradictory mans. today i was telling yoshi and mark tht im going straight to heaven hahah argh. freaking messed up larhhs do you know what it's like to be afraid of facing things you dont wish to face?
i need to get candles and flowers haven't got a friggin' clue what assing type to get never knew which type he prefered never really cared thn too late to ask now too late for regrets now living with mistakes made y'know i havent got a single picture to show you exactly how friggin' retarded he looked i remember how we could always tell he was embaressed hahah his ears would turn freaking red damn hilarious
i don't want saturday to come ugh.
on a higher note thou mac is soo freaking cute :P hahah seeeeeee :DD
Meaning of Consternate con⋅ster⋅nate /ˈkɒnstərˌneɪt/[kon-ster-neyt] Use consternate in a Sentence –verb (used with object), -nat⋅ed, -nat⋅ing. to dismay, confuse, or terrify.
Origin: 1645–55; < L consternātus, ptp. of consternāre to unsettle, throw into confusion, perh. intensive deriv. of consternere to cover, spread (with) (con- con- + sternere to strew; cf. stratum ), though sense development uncert.
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gosh how quickly time flies D: received our new timetables today gahh imma screwed girl i tell you tsk. dont like O's at all man
buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut i need to chiong very hard so that i'll get good grades and that i'll get into a good school bleahhs it sounds horribly disgusting but i still have to do my best go nerissa, you can do it!
i got confirmed on saturday :DD hahah now im like clarice nerissa tan LOL th name dont really appeal to me but the others *stares at thm* thinks it's nicer go figure. robin was soooooooooooooooooo 'nice' he called me up just to laugh at me -.- cos i forgot my lines whn i went up to the archbishop rawr . dumb sister . i hate you(:
.Wednesday, 24 June 2009 ' 22:06 Y
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16 more days to that horrifying day
church camp has officially started i'll be confirmed this saturday [woohoo !] buuuuut cause of th H1N1 we cant overnight in church awwwww D: uber sadness bleahhs plus we have to go back to church by 9am tomorrow rawr ! this morning was nearly late :O hahah cause th day before me yoshi and htet watch this dumb horror flick at htet's house and i couldnt sleep at night so i called htet to annoy him :D hahah ! ended up not sleeping till 3++ and waking up late and rushing to church :P hahahh ! today was playplayplay tomorrow it'l get serious =/ damn. hahah !
i got freaking brilliant fantastic fabulous awesome great news:DD hahah unbelievably awesome thingy hahah im an awesome genius :D heehee :P
buuuuuuuuuuuut it's still not enough to make me normal again zzz ): im honestly dreading th day can ? ugh. and i feel damn lonely now too dammit ugh. im not gonna let this get me down like that ): dumb , i miss you . why'd you have to go and leave me like this ?
.Tuesday, 16 June 2009 ' 18:47 Y
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24 days to that really unpleasant day
zzz got into trouble last night with mummy and daddy ohman. argh. genius part is: i still cant really figure out what i did lol i sound like some unrepentent kid but im not please let thm cool down first larhhs i escaped to my Godparents house tonight go home thn apologise bleahhs
back from malacca it was as awesome as i hope it'd be hahah but nothing exciting to talk about lol other thn alot of sessions, talks good food average shopping and wacky card playing :P hahah
had dinner with yoshi last night thn didnt want to go home early so went to ECP to slack waitwaitwait i DID tell my dear parents where i was and who i was with AND roughly what time i'll be home no idea what the hell happened came home and kena whacked bleahhs eitherways shall apologise tonight. go figure man... =/ i shall be a good kid eitherways :P when i figure out what went wrong i might tell hahahah !
that guilty angelY
nerissa nicholas luna tan is a perfectly weird name for a crazy gurl like her
she has a long list of nicknames , just ask around
born on 130593 , she is sweet sixteen this year
a fickle-minded taurus darling , and loving it
a broadrician with insufficient school spirit tsktsk
lurveeeeees weird stuffs like quirky songs and curious clothes
dreams biggggggg ; talks fun-ney
oh , did i mention ? she loves/hates her favourite people too
scribblings about love , life , music and everything else under the sun
she's a contradiction , don't bother figuring her out
oxox
those unholy cravingsY
a rainbow
a smile on your face
the sound of your laughter in my ears oneLady Sov's Jigsaw D: impossible but i can try :D
O's to end fassssssssssst !
anti-depressents :D
her wicked lovesY
that big Guy up there
her family
that boy
baby jade ; darling shuxin ; blur dionne
tabsy ; ratsy ; crazyclub :D
that PTS grace ; sweet aunty eunice who never stops laughing ; zoie who keeps preaching ; jeremy that daddy ; jasmin the sweetest mummy
sister robin ; edward wifey ; sammy , mine alwayssss; desiree ,the fantastic four ; felix , the daddy of us all ; edwin , the mouse ; dien and alan , th nice biggg brothers who spoils me :D
jinren tht big-headed kor ; geraldlim tht darlg kid brother
all things bowling ; music / songs / lyrics ; dancedancedance
those literary smurks
