.Monday, 3 November 2008 ' 22:21 Y
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okay. i got a
confession to make...
(ohno !)
i've got
suicidal thoughts running around in my head (ohmyword !!)
and please i think we've already covered th part where its
not about a guy / any guy / anything about guys (are you sure?) [yes i'm bloody hell am]
i just feel like jumping out of a tall building for no reason.... (please dont do anything stupid!)
LAWL now that's
damn funny (ohgod ! you should see a doctor !)
but hey hey dont go crazy please . cause i'm not . i wont go jump out of a building, take a rope and hang myself etc. so relax please . (how can i?!)
i
hate this time of the year you know ? i just
simply hate it. christmas or not. friends around or not. i just simply hate this time of the year. why ? now that's a DDS [deep dark secret] that im not gonna tell :DD
happy guessing. (argh!)
i hate thunderstorms too. hate it hate it hate it.
especially when its at night. it makes me more suicidal... dang. i hate my brains / conscious / whatevr.
can i please kill myself now ? ):
so what what what am i gonna do ?? rawr !
you know what i wish ? i wish i could turn back the time. i wish i never met him. i wish i never remembered what happened. i hate it. i hate remembering. the nightmares. the fears and all the pain. if it werent for the b!#$%&* SL i wouldnt have remembered what happened now would i ?
then again if someone had told me that big 20-year old guys were dangerous, the whole thing wouldnt have happened anyway. why i hate this time of the year ? cause this is when it happened. and i hate it. i hate that fact that i cant be normal anymore. i hate it all. why me of all people ? why f***ing me? when will the pain all stop ? i hate thunderstorms. especially when its at night. i hate the sound of the thunder and lightning. i hate the sound of rain hitting the floor. i hate it all. Labels: suicidal
